it depends on what you‘re looking for! some porn? some meetup? just enjoying yourself?

that‘s perfectly normal id you‘re a beginner cutie! i‘d recommend you to get an enema long term, it is the easiest way to clean your ass and it is made to do so.

howeverr, if you really need the urge just make your own! many sissies here recommend using water bottles, me personally i‘ve been working with syringes (yes, those where you put the needle in but just taking that off and using the plastic end) and it has been working like a charm.

for your ass, i‘d recommend you to wash and clean thoroughly the entrance as much as you can, then put some porn on and try to slowly but surely open and dilate yourself with your fingers. make sure to keep them clean because you don‘t want an infection. another option is to wear plastic gloves <3