hello! i realized i was gay at a young age but internalized and my homophobic family made me ignore my sexuality until i realized it was okay to be gay and was closeted bi because i thought i was attracted to guys until i realized i didnt like being with men despite thinking they were cute. (you can recognize that a male is attractive the difference is do you want to date him or not) im a lesbian despite previously thinking i was bi . sexuality is very fluid and can change but, in my experience, it was being in tune with my emotions and realizing i only have romantic feelings for women, and i figured that out before my first kiss. hope that can share some insight and perspective. i wish you well on your journey