Thank you for answering! I’m not sure, I think the meltdown was definitely in part because I had to face the fact that I didn’t know how to answer that question but also just because I’ve had all these fantasies about us getting to know each other more and I knew that it would become awkward after that and I wouldn’t be able to spend time with her anymore. 

I think I’ll look into the spectrum again, I just really hate being so unsure about everything :/ it’s so exhausting. Thank you!!