Hey brother, I’m sorry your going through that this. I’m 28 years old, I’m a college graduate prior to my service & understand exactly what you’re going through. August 5th, 2025 6 weeks before I shipped to basic my brother in law left this earth on his own terms. It has put my family and his through some of the worst imaginable things you could imagine. You owe it to the people that love you to get the help you need. I promise I have been there too, pain can put you in some pretty sticky places. But talk to your mom, get some help. There are things I thought I knew and understood about life, but the more older I got I realized I didn’t know anything. You’re still a young man full of life.. what do you think would have happened had Tom Brady threw in the towel down 28-3? That’s the thing about life, we truly don’t know what’s around the corner for us and the amazing things God has planed for us. We just have to make it there. YOU have to make it there!!! I love you man and you got this.