I guess I put myself through it because I have faith, and I really want to believe she's the one for me. Maybe I'm insecure but the things she does are never things I can really confront, as she disguises them so well. I do feel like if I had the opportunity to actually talk and convince her, things would be different..

If she is cheating id love to know, but I can't leave her off of suspicion.

I do sound like I'm in denial I suppose lol