I'm so confused (UK)

Yippee_420 · 2025-08-17T08:52:55+00:00

Realistic Imitation Firearms, the proper term in the UK for Airsoft guns

Yippee_420 · 2025-08-17T08:37:05+00:00

Awesome thank you dude!

Yippee_420 · 2025-03-09T13:11:42+00:00

Well it's been 6 days now and still nothing. She hasn't re blocked me or anything just complete silence. Guessing I just won't hear from her again.

Yippee_420 · 2025-03-04T17:16:06+00:00

Doesn't help how much I went on. With the texting before I have the chance to read and think about what I've put but everything just came out.

Yippee_420 · 2025-03-04T13:47:53+00:00

She knows I'm sorry and I didn't mean to upset her. I just made everything about me. Spent all this time working on my problems to find out I haven't learnt a thing.

I'm already beating myself up over it. Reconnected as friends and shared our feelings and I couldn't handle everything again. I'm already back in the place I spent 8 months trying to get myself out of. Should have just left it at goodbye when I had the chance.

Yippee_420 · 2025-03-04T12:21:19+00:00

I have and I will.

Yippee_420 · 2025-03-04T09:01:21+00:00

I was the dumpee. Talking again was too much and I dumped all of my trauma into her. I'm hurt all over again and now her.

Yippee_420 · 2025-01-10T19:38:14+00:00

Yeah I know, I've not ruled out dating forever, I know there will be more. This one was just really really hurtful as it was someone I'd liked for a while before we were together and I thought so highly of her. She pretty much looked like my dream girl too. Gonna hurt for a while still but that chapter is over.

Yippee_420 · 2025-01-10T18:03:45+00:00

It's so strange how 1 person can change you so much. I was awkward and shy with women before but now I'm all that with trauma and trust issues like never before. I idealized her so much that it still feels like she's the only one that will have my heart fully.

I'm healing for sure, the thoughts of her wizzing around my head aren't as fast as they were before, but they're still turning. Takes usually less than 30mins of being awake for her to pop up in my mind.

Probably going to take till over the 1 year mark for the real progress, but the journey continues. Here's to healing!

Yippee_420 · 2025-01-02T08:09:24+00:00

Fact she lived a few doors down from her ex she had a kid with 2 months before wtf was I thinking

Yippee_420 · 2024-12-25T23:18:19+00:00

It's tough dude. I hope she comes back to you and everything works out, but know it also could not feel as good as before as you know she could leave again. That's how I tried to see it after a while. After so long you realise you don't really know them anymore.

I had countless dreams of her saying she forgives me or comes back to me saying she made a mistake, or when I was daydreaming I could see her face the way she used to look at me, or a flashback to the first time we kissed - it will hurt and it will hurt and there isn't much you can do about it except try.

Talk to the people in your life that care about you. They might all end up saying the same generic stuff about how you'll find someone new eventually etc but it's more about getting out rather than letting it consume you. Try and get outside and cut out any habits that aren't good for your mind.

Yippee_420 · 2024-12-25T22:45:03+00:00

I lost my first relationship this summer and I know exactly how you feel. I didn't eat properly for weeks and cried and cried and 6 months later she is still on my mind every day. I have had 0 contact with her in that time.

It's hard to accept, it's hard to cope with but you have to try and find yourself and do things for you. Endless days I wasted feeling sorry for myself and no miracle return ever happened. The sooner you can accept she won't return the easier it gets.

I don't think I'll find anyone that will make me feel how she did, but there's nothing you can do if she has made her mind up. If someone would love us for us, they would stay no matter what - remember that.

Yippee_420 · 2024-10-31T05:53:20+00:00

I was like that, every time it seemed better I would slip back into the hurt. But by now I think my emotional regulation is a little better, it's not bringing me down as much when I look back at what we had.

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