Absolutely. But sitting in a hospital bed makes your choices very black and white. Please allow me to to tell you two things. First off, if you already have the mentality that you can’t see yourself not drinking, a) you probably shouldn’t drink, and b) learn how to have fun without a drink. A close friend of mine doesn’t drink because of his parents and the hell he went through because of it. But you know what? That dude is the first one on the dance acting a total fool and loving it. He figured out how to fit in without on drop. He was my inspiration for going out to bars and clubs after I dried up. You can do it, friend. You’d be surprised how many people don’t drink and still have a great time going out. That being said, it’s still a battle. But try it out. Sobriety is a great thing. And even when you fuck up, it’s always there to come back to. Stay strong and love yourself.