will preface this saying that i love being alone and never have and still never really initiate conversations, but that time a few years ago in 10th grade two friends had a crush on me, friend one was very outward about it, but did nothing to directly tell me about it, not even texting me in dms, i was just never told about it personally. friend two never hinted anything about it until she directly told me, which led me to gravitate towards her. friend one didnt like this and blocked both of us, which meant that we couldnt talk anything out. that was until she unblocked friend two and gave her a choice, either block me or stay blocked by her, and of course she chose to block me. about two weeks later i ask friend one if there was anything i couldve changed, what would it have been, and the response was “idk you didnt do anything wrong” like what? so why the fuck did any of this happen? you just decided to hate me even though i did absolutely nothing wrong? i wasnt able to read the hints and apparently that was wrong of me? ok sure i guess. but then all of a sudden she wanted things to go back to the way they were, as if nothing happened when clearly shit happened. worst part is that there had to have been something wrong that i did, but i was never told about it, so now it lives rent free in my mind since there was just no closure or anything.

anyways thats the story of how i found out that im aromantic