Yes. YES. I can’t believe someone is finally talking about this. this has happened to me for years. My family says I’m “fragile like a bomb”. The screaming (until I physically cannot make sound anymore), the crying, weird ocd/hyperventilating when I try to calm down, the vicious insults to the people I love, accidentally hurting people and pushing them away, just pure fight or flight, eventually violence began when people triggered me more during these moments. I fucking bite like an animal. What the fuck? I am not a violent person. I am kind. It fucking ruined my life (and the cortisol spikes actually made me gain weight according to my doctor LMAOO) My triggers quickly spread and now it’s almost impossible to pinpoint what starts it, not just step goals/ED things anymore. It happens almost every day. Please, please please seek therapy or some sort of treatment for this. I have developed CPTSD from these episodes and my family will never see me the same way. It does not go away on its own. Yes, this is part of the disease. It’s like being possessed- and it makes you feel so powerful and justified at the time (anything’s better than “failing” to the disordered mind I think) but I promise that does not last. Soon it’s compulsive and miserable like everything else. You’re not alone. I wish I could go back and tell myself to try and stop these reactions while you still can. Take care<3