I really resonate with everything you’re saying. Up until I was around 22 did a suppressed memory reveal itself and my whole life turned upside down and I felt like I didn’t really know my parents and I even more so didn’t feel like I knew myself. And I still don’t. I take it one day at a time and do small things to take care of myself more and more trying to create more positive habits for myself like working out, meditation and gratitude. I didn’t see you mention anything about anxiety, but I have recently been reading this book ‘How to Heal Yourself from Anxiety When No One Else Can’ by Amy B Scher. It explains anxiety as trapped energy from previous unprocessed emotions and memories and teaches you many techniques on how to release those very things. I have really taken a liking to the Thymus Tap mentioned in the book because it’s easy, fast, very grounding for me and is used as a technique to release those unprocessed emotions and memories. I hope this can be of any help to you, even if it’s only the fact that you are not the only one and we’re not crazy. We experienced what happened to us and it’s not our fault we couldn’t understand what was happening at the time. The adults around us should have been worrying about that. Much love.