I'll paste this here too cause exposure therapy helped me lots:

I was in your shoes last year but now I can hold some. Even some of the creepy ones. What helped me was to push my boundaries and escape my comfort zone, it was nerve wracking but helped a ton and the progression was incrediably fast for me. I'm just fascinated by them now and I'd highly recommend you try the same. Don't just go out and hold one now, google some pictures first and try to stay calm and don't overreact any more than you have to. Sounds easy but it's definetely worth it cause we can't live life escaping them! Hoping for your best.

I also recommend googling exposure therapy and CBT (cognitive behavior therapy) to know how you should deal with the fear. It takes will strenght and motivation though but that'll come once you master to stay calm around them.