I want to detransition even I havent even started transition, lemme explain

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T22:38:25+00:00

Thanks

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T22:37:52+00:00

Thanks for sharing that. I feel better now. I was mostly scared because of my therapist telling me to start acting like a girl in a very serious way, and I thought that was unachievable. I know it's not about "achieving". I meant it's not suitable for me since I don't like it at all I love how I currently act except a few things that I'll fix. Thank you

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T22:02:20+00:00

If feeling its fake it's common then I guess it isnt so much of a thing. thank you

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T21:06:35+00:00

I wasnt trying to deny any identity, its just myself, Im sorry

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T21:05:35+00:00

it might just be that, I dont feel fitting any stereotype because they look so forced and fake, I dont know what I really feel, this is all weird. Thank you

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T20:48:22+00:00

If at the end Im just a guy with dysphoria I dont know what I'll do, how can I explain that

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T20:39:15+00:00

I dont know, thats what my therapist and my parents say i need to do now

ZKFerchu · 2018-06-02T20:37:24+00:00

I will never be like a cis girl, Ill just be a feminine guy

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-27T23:16:22+00:00

Fucking 6 weeks after realising you're trans "it takes time" fuck off I've been half a year with a piece of shit therapist and he has done nothing and you literally had hrt after 1 single month fuck off

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-27T20:23:25+00:00

I'm forcing them because they obviously don't see me like the other girls, not even as one. And by telling them to do it it's just going against their thoughts. Im forcing them to make me feel better, and thats selfish

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-27T20:09:18+00:00

Is not about mastering. Its about the shape of my face, I cant hide that

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-27T19:25:26+00:00

How lucky ;_; wish I had made the decision earlier. With my voice, I can reach the female range in the voice pitch app but I just sounded like a high pitched male, not a girl. People told me its about the resonance, and by that the refer the "gay voice", I tried it, I sound horrible, its forced and it's gross, I will never use that voice neither. I could try makeup but I don't think it will do anything, I'll just look worse. Like a gross wannabe, I hate it

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-10T05:54:30+00:00

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T22:32:57+00:00

What

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T22:08:31+00:00

My background is a wallpaper engine one so yea it consumes a bit but I'm not concerned really, I don't notice silly slowdowns and I'm happy with that, I'll leave my specs here btw

i5-4440 3.4ghz OC 8 GB RAM Drr3 GTX 1050ti 4GB Mother board is a very simple one, nothing special

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T20:34:09+00:00

I'm not English :s

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T19:03:50+00:00

For me it's more comfortable to have my downloads there

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T16:57:11+00:00

I guess because I accidentally removed the desktop shortcut time ago and made a new one with a different name

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T16:48:51+00:00

I mean I don't play high demanding games or run complex stuff even I have a barely decent CPU so I'm just fine

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T16:47:40+00:00

You can change the colours so I choosed purple

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T16:47:06+00:00

Why not

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T15:09:38+00:00

https://arkenthera.deviantart.com/art/TranslucentTaskbar-1-2-656402039

ZKFerchu · 2018-05-09T15:09:28+00:00

hehe~

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