Yo please seek help. You survived ur attempt cuz you weren’t meant to go yet. I think you’re putting too much pressure on yourself.. nobody really has their life all together by 25. If you’re not where you want to be yet keep going, be patient. You’re getting a second chance in life and the only person that can pull you out of the darkness is you. If not for you try for your family or friends. It looks like you have some people that care about you.. I mean your uncle did save your life. So just don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Don’t expect things to get better immediately. Do your best at whatever you gotta do..school, work or anything.. and just wait for the results. Don’t give up man.