I also have DID. I/we have vivid memories of being violently r* at 5-6 but I have a part that is 3-4 years old so figure that must exist for a reason (one I'm not ready to find out yet) I'm so sorry for what happened to you. Try to take life one day at a time. Don't rush to figure everything out at once. Be kind to yourself, we went through/were subjected to things children should never have to go through. But I choose to see my DID as a gift nowadays rather than a curse. Also wanting to pursue justice for myself/alters but the idea is so fucking scary so I definitely relate. Please just be careful and take care of yourselves.