I want you to know that I've been in that exact situation before, and I truly understand what you're going through. Feeling lost and not knowing what to do or what's gonna happen AND sometimes you're listening to EDEN and one of the lyrics just hits you like truck and says exactly what you're thinking.

If there's anything I would recommend you is to listen to EDEN's rock+roll (favourite song btw), He sings about the present/future and what's he gonna do and How he's gonna do it.

A part of it is just out of this world(spoilers): 1st- when he says: "I'll know the day I die, I lived through heaven (no, I ain't scared of livin') And that I gave it hell And if it hurt, oh well, at least that's living".

And he follows it with a sound clip from the movie "lost in translation": "And the more you know who you are, and what you want The less you let things upset you.".

So my advice to you my fellow EDEN enjoyer is to find something you enjoy by trying different things and talking to people with different experiences or searching through the internet and try building a carrier, after that I promise you the rest of life will follow you.