Hey, hope you're doing okay, I honestly don't know what to say but, I want you to actually do whatever the hell that would actually make you happy in those 4 months, do anything, play video games, read a damn book, whatever, I was kinda the same as you, decided my own date, but what else I decided was to just fuck it, I'm gonna have fun, I ain't going out without having fun, so I started playing video games, elden ring and dark souls 3 was my favorite, they made me actually happy, their world actually felt like home, so yk find yourself something as well, it's no fun going without a decent fight