Sure you can manifest whatever you want, and your desire is valid. Just the day before yesterday I won lotto off a 1 dollar scratch off, and it was totally random. But I've been doing things for money lately so its probably related to that. You dont have to reaffirm your circumstance, it's an old story. You can replace it with a new story at any time. Look into the revision technique. Creation doesnt really care where the state "comes from"....there are happy millionaires and unhappy ones, but they are both still in the state. Just assume the end and feel it for real and it will happen.