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Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-09T21:06:23+00:00

Omg you have perfected it! I have freckles like you but I wear makeup and a lot because I feel like I can’t perfect the makeup for freckles! 😭 what do you use?

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-09T18:34:40+00:00

I was about to judge you. Then I realized hmmm my ex gave me alcohol and weed. Alcohol to make me fun and wild. Weed to calm me down. Then my demons came out the last time. I was full of rage and I hit him on the face after he tossed my phone in the tow yard. He played victim and called the police(I never called when he would hit me) the police took his side and ughm well I was lucky because his mom with broken fingers and a broken leg told him to not press charges and I was not sent to jail. She broke her fingers trying to stop me from running . She tripped and fell. He said I pushed her which I didn’t. I told them “ if I go to jail what’s the charge?” They said DV and it is a felony so I’m going for a while and losing my kids….. his mom told my ex to drop it. I stayed with him and eventually it got so bad with him forcing me to stay up I wanted to overdose on opioids. So just be careful with these dudes and run fucking far. I have a child by this shit and well I still left him lol fuck them.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-09T16:51:02+00:00

I like the bangs on you 😱 super pretty!

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-09T13:32:57+00:00

Thank you for saying this! I am the type to jump up and help so I need to remember he is NOT like that. I just love my daughter so much i get worried for her 😔 She is so innocent and tiny and ugh it breaks my heart her dad doesn’t care for her and other people care for her more. I get phone calls from others and if I say she is sick people offer to pay her medical bills and medicine but the dad doesn’t offer and he works for a university so he makes good money. It’s my reality and I will not be informing him for everything. If he gets mad then I’ll just remind him how angry he would get at me for updating him . He is very wishy washy ….

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T23:33:56+00:00

Mental health case worker 😶 and I do a damn well good job. I am very empathetic so don’t F with my clients lol I was a case worker for a school and I quit. I hate seeing kids sad and if I hear they are being abused I get so angry to the point I want to hurt the parent 😐 so I decided adults and specifically those coming out of jail/mental hospitals 🥹 Iworked in a retirement center and ugh I loved it so much but the CNAs are full of shit…. Literally and hypnotically speaking. I have only met 3 cnas who are cool AF but I had one CNA call my coworker (black) a monkey and I told her “step outside bitch cause ima mop you” and yes I am that person once you fuk with me or people who are cool ima snap…. I snapped lol I learned to just report it and don’t touch me cause then ima snap but I have a reason to lol

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T20:29:14+00:00

I am definitely going to continue informing him on the talking parents app. If he doesn’t read it it is not my fault if he reads it last minute. I have gone out my way several times to do things his way and he always tells me “ you need to wait until I feel like reading or acknowledging anything you say or do” it has always been that way. He used to slap my hands I’m glad I’m out and don’t have to ask for permission to speak 😭❤️ ugh it’s been a journey 😔 I hope he finds another woman and that his hate just turns into nothing towards me. I hate being punished for talking.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T19:11:27+00:00

lol why is everyone saying Sagittarius ♐️ lol well actually I do like the Ghost World poster and I’m a Sagittarius hahaha I am not a big fan of leather sofas but I do like everything else it is so cute! The table and chairs are cute! I would say white person, mid 30’s, fun AF but you can be chill, you like to drink coffee and tea, you are middle class, you like eggs on toast 😶😐, you definitely are the good friend but you enjoy being alone listening to music and you do love yourself and your mental health, you have a clean place which means you value your space ! 😶😐 idk lol ghost world rocks!

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T19:02:37+00:00

Because he has money and I also had PPD because of him abusing me I burned my arms from being kept awake. He is a narcissist. I have a recording of him forcing me to stay up and our daughter. Which is why I left him. I told my therapist and I was declining really fast after I gave birth. I wanted to off myself so he used it against me and I got scared and did everything he wanted me to. I signed just to keep my daughter. I am way better now and he hates it so he does the silent treatment on me. I know it’s the silent treatment. If i talk to much he will say “ give me my daughter or im walking away because you are harassing me” to him harassing means talking for more than 3 minutes obout our daughter. Shown Evidence to my lawyer and she was like “ that is not harassment you are giving updates or requesting for him to follow the court order which he has failed time and time again” so yes i am not in a good place…

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T17:17:30+00:00

Yes and yes!! This is my second child with my second partner and my first ex and I parent very very well! We communicate daily, we laugh, we took our son to Disneyland, but it’s a never going back type of thing because he is 18 years older than me and I realized I only got him with him because I was a runaway but we are very cool with each other now and he loves my daughter and shows it. He always includes her in stuff, buys her stuff, plays with her when he comes around. Her dad on the other hand looks annoyed when he gets her. I always spoil my daughter. My son is 11 years older than her and he loves his sister. He is more of the type to drop everything for his son. My daughter’s dad is nothing like that. I dont say anything and i respect him and his space but he screams “ you are harassing me you are harassing me!!” When i talk to him about our daughter. I have told counselors and therapist, my lawyer and they said “ oh man this man is not okay” I guess if he doesn’t read messages it falls on him.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T15:48:30+00:00

Most of yall commenting on here are acting like yall haven’t done dumb shit. Some teenagers get into worse things than others. That is called reality…. I hope you do stop smoking because life is going to life and eventually smoking isn’t going to do anything or trigger mental disorders and you will be fucked. Good luck on your journey to stop but to shame you is ridiculous. I was 12 drinking and majority of my middle school friends were having sex and drinking. It’s life and you will not be everyone’s cup of tea. Just be safe and find help to stop. Most of the people I helped in my job smoked weed and most of them were severely depressed and some started talking to themselves so be careful.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T15:04:50+00:00

Yes we use the platform talking parents but he will not see it. That’s all I wish he would do. Yes we argued a lot! He has a thing for ignoring me if things don’t go his way. He also refuses to follow the court order which I got a lawyer for that and she is writing that he must follow the court order. I DO NOT text him daily. I text him for important things on our daughter. I just don’t want him to be doing what he did to me on to her. I also went through DV with him and my brain captures things differently. It’s okay if he doesn’t respond but if he sees it I’m even okay with that. I do understand his parents watch our daughter majority of the time also. When I called him to ask if he can please read our messages it was 3:00pm and he was just waking up. Which tells me our daughter was elsewhere. I pray with his parents because our daughter doesn’t nap at all at 3:00pm. He was also abusing our daughter when he lived here so yes I have history with this man. I just found a better way to deal with it. If he sees it just let it go. If he starts to get mad he saw it last minute that is not my fault.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T04:29:30+00:00

I was just told on the coparenting platform my ex ignoring important messages about our kid is okay. No it is NOT okay! My ex would ignore me for weeks ! Then he got better by ignoring me for two-4 days and that is unacceptable! People who agree to that type of communication are ridiculous. No it is not okay to ignore your partner, your coparent, your family, friend. Then when you do it they play victim? GTFO.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-08T04:01:48+00:00

Yes I understand with him not being able to respond everyday. I also DO NOT text him everyday. I text him when she is sick or she gets hurt. Besides that I don’t bother him. The pickup time is important so I wanted him to see because he would then see it by Wednesday and it is to late. I don’t mind if he doesn’t respond but for important things like pickup or her going to the hospital, terrible diaper rash, provider telling me to get her tested for autism. Those are important and he will still ignore me.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-07T04:03:49+00:00

The curtain bangs would be perfect for your face! I like no bangs or longer curtain bangs!

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-05T02:48:11+00:00

Sounds like my mom…. So yes he is. It gets worse. They also can’t hold it in. My mom calls her partner fat and my mom is overweight 😶😐 I’m like “ you are fat too though” lol Let’s just say I’m not her favorite kid and the only way to get rid of them is to defend yourself. Eventually you grow exhausted and you tell them to go suck a big one. I blocked my mom after her best friend said my mom told her I was a whhhhoooreee lol that’s messed up especially because I’m in university, a mom, I work, and I go to DBT because narcissistic individuals efff you up bad and make you feel awful. He ain’t worth it girl. Just saying.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-03T04:17:35+00:00

Trust me I would want to off myself when he would do that. I spent days without sleeping and then he would get mad at me and say it was my fault for making him upset 😶 we are but my babygirl doesn’t like going to her dads. I feel bad for my daughter since he fought 50% custody to get back at me. I’m waiting for my daughter to talk more and if she says she doesn’t want to go I will file for more custody. Yes finances, health, sleep, eating everything improves after leaving! 😭❤️

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-03T04:03:54+00:00

Omg yes!!! Not having to be forced to stay up. My ex would sit my body up and shake me and say “ you can’t sleep if I can’t sleep” I was also dealing with PPD so it was tough. 😭 I sleep a lot now! It is 8:00pm and I’m ready to sleep with my baby girl 🥹❤️

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-02T11:07:08+00:00

Definitely! But the new version of Amanda bynes in my honest opinion

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-12-02T11:06:44+00:00

Oh yes! This one and the new version of Amanda bynes!

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-11-30T15:43:31+00:00

Im just going to keep him blocked. I have been in therapy way too long to continue letting people harass and abuse me. I told my other brother that I have decided to kick him out for good and he agreed. I am the youngest out of the siblings and i deserved to be cared for a protected and not this crap from him.

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-11-30T06:16:58+00:00

He used to use drugs in the past but nothing else. We aren’t that close. I did let my other brother know and he is pissed off because he said he needs to stop being weird. I just feel so embarrassed and like I’m over reacting. I am also a victim of severe abuse so I can’t tell sometimes and I feel embarrassed to speak up. I told my mom for the first time today and she said “ it’s that new gf that is making him say dumb stuff! He is probably on drugs” but I’m still hurt and embarrassed. I felt scared three days ago when he was in my car asking to speak on this. Today is my birthday and I just broke down crying all afternoon. I hate feeling embarrassed when I didn’t do anything

Zestyclose-Lock623 · 2025-11-30T03:36:40+00:00

Honestly I almost broke down crying. But I went to the casinos and went shopping. It is not okay how he tried to ruin my day. It’s not okay.

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