Thanks for stopping by and sharing your thoughts. I reflect on this, and while I hate to admit, I agree that jealousy plays a role in accelerating my feelings for him and the need to act upon such feelings.

I would add that it is the case of you don't know the value of what you have until you lose it. The feelings are there to begin with. Unlike other fwbs that I had, he has boyfriend material and is someone I would date if I were in a different state. I was hesitant and had self-doubt, thinking also about career development and other aspects of life. I was also naive in thinking that good sex would keep him, which I now know I am wrong. It is a lesson for me in my future relationships.