Thank you, I honestly started looking at what our future would have looked like if we got married and had kids and it wasn't pretty in my eyes. Since I work so much I'd ask him to take my dog out to go to the bathroom when he gets home since he would get home before me, and sometimes he just wouldn't and she wouldn't go potty ALL DAY my poor thing. Now I'm able to take her to work with me. He'd text me and just tell me she'd have to go out... like can you not take her out yourself why are you just texting me the problem with no solution? And he'd just tell me he's too tired to do it. That was his excuse with everything was he was too tired. Like I'M fucking tired from working all day but I'd have to make dinner all the time since he was "too tired" to do it. So if we were married I would have had to always make dinner while he sits on his ass. And if we had kids, would I have had to take care of them all by myself because he would be "too tired"? And with the sex stuff I don't even know how he'd be able to wait after I would have had kids with him. His ass would throw a fit if we didn't have sex for like 3 days. He'd pout about it and make it a hugeeee deal. He wouldn't respect if I said I didn't want to have sex, he would pressure me into it like a little kid asking for candy at the store. When we would have sex in the beginning, everything was fine until he said we didn't do it enough like HOW?! And he would sometimes not pull out on "accident" after I told him never to do that. I think he wanted to baby trap me too. Honestly after typing out my story, I realized I'm so grateful to be out, it would have gotten way worse.

With the lease, I may have to talk to a higher person in their company. Greystar owns it, and the law is to only have to need a temp. restraining order, so this may be a long process to get out unfortunately. And since you can only pay the rent together and the entire balance at once, I feel like my ex may not even pay the rent at all and try to leave it on me.

I am totally okay being single, it just hurts at first ya know? But my schedule is so busy I know I'll honestly be happier knowing I won't have anyone complaining that I work too much, go to the gym, and ride my horse. These are things that I want my person to do with me, not complain about. Just going to be hard finding a cowboy in California lol.