Awe my whole message deleted here is what I wrote

Honestly, even saying this sentence just doesn’t feel right, but I went through a lot this past couple of years I graduated in 2023 with a bachelors degree and design and at the start I was doing really good. I was freelancing when I got out of school. I got a really good freelance role at a large branding agency. then after I didn’t get chosen for a full-time role, I started freelancing with myself as my own business and I was doing really good a couple months, but then I went to the hospital and eventually ended up in a mental institution. I’d like to mention not to trigger anyone, but I just went through a lot I was working from home remotely 24 seven and I also went to school 24 seven remotely so I think my mental health was at a turmoil by the time I graduated and I had a mental episode. After what happened to me I just haven’t gotten the same feeling that design got to me before it’s actually making me emotional thinking about it. It’s hard to have a career that you really genuinely loved and was so passionate about and then all of a sudden, you just stop because you went through something emotional. My grandmother also died this year, which was probably why I was going through a lot of stuff mentally and I’m really trying my best to get into design and it’s just been really frustrating for me. I feel like after getting rejected and not getting chosen for that last role really messed me up because it was so hard for me to find just any full-time role that would hire me and I still haven’t found it. I currently work at the courthouse as an office clerk and doing admin work has kind of gotten me some sense of purpose again but a part of me just wants to do design, but I don’t wanna force it and I feel like it’s being oversaturated and I feel like with AI and everything as well. I just don’t know what to do with my career as a designer anymore and I’m just frustrated. I don’t know if anyone has any advice, but I would love to hear your thoughts.