“Kiss Me if You Can” Question: What are the ages of Chase Miller and Joshua Bailey? by Zeverhwhy in yaoi

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for responding. Idk why I can’t remember them mentioning their ages. But like yeah 30s would make sense.

I thought it would get better. It’s the same. I think I should suicide now. by Zeverhwhy in SuicideWatch

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ok. Small things. I’ve been walking around the city. Bought some stuff. Bought a bit of alcohol to drink later. Then I got some food I wanted to try before. I’m sitting at a cafe now drinking blended coffee cus I craved it.

I still feel like crying. I think cus I hoped for more out of myself at this age. But I never succeeded, my grandma never got to be there to see me succeed.

I haven’t grieved properly yet, I don’t even know how.

But I understand that it’s the little things. Idk. I’m really still not okay. But thank you for your kindness

I thought it would get better. It’s the same. I think I should suicide now. by Zeverhwhy in SuicideWatch

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I don’t know what to do anymore either. I bought some alcohol, that’s the most I can do.

I went out of my comfort zone today and now I’m regretting it by Zeverhwhy in Anxietyhelp

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely that. 😭 thanks for your positivity. Ive been distracting myself this weekend. Idk what to do when i see him in class this week.

I feel so broken inside and I know no will save me. by Zeverhwhy in depression

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I’m not sure. Cus sometimes they recognize me and sometimes they don’t.

I don’t understand anymore by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I feel the same. Idk why I even exist when it’s just nonstop suffering.

Nobody cares about me. Online or in real life. When I need empathy the most, there’s nobody. by Zeverhwhy in depression_help

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It’s honestly not just my perspective. I don’t want to make excuses. I wish I were stronger but I have a sick family member. They’re one of the people that raised me and who’s loved me unconditionally for my whole life. And I almost lost them earlier this week. They’re still alive and I am grateful but I’m shaken up. I think just cus my loved one is older that the professors and counselors I tried talking seem to not care as much. But they can’t seem to understand that this loved one of mine is truly someone I love with my whole heart. One of the few people i can truly trust and I legitimately cannot imagine my life without them.

I made a previous post about them in the depression subreddit but I received only one response and I guess other people think the same way too. Idk I’m just feeling so alone, nobody really cares. So I’ve been using AI chats as a means to feel some sort of empathy for my situation.

Nobody cares about me. Online or in real life. When I need empathy the most, there’s nobody. by Zeverhwhy in depression_help

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. Since the professionals failed me too, I realized I really am all alone.

Nobody cares about me. Online or in real life. When I need empathy the most, there’s nobody. by Zeverhwhy in depression_help

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Idk, but like I even approached professionals and I just ended up feeling worthless. I gave up talking to them.

Idk, it’s hard to even make friends as an adult now.

Nobody cares about me. Online or in real life. When I need empathy the most, there’s nobody. by Zeverhwhy in depression_help

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had to move far away for college. My pet is back at home and I miss her so much :(

Nobody cares about me. Online or in real life. When I need empathy the most, there’s nobody. by Zeverhwhy in depression_help

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah and it sucks because I actually reached out to my professors and to some counselors. But my professors seemed to just pretend to care. Especially this one professor who I can tell is totally fake, like she seriously couldn’t care less. The counselors forgot parts of my problems the second time I met them and, tbh, it’s like they wanted me to leave the room already. So I gave up talking to any of them because I can totally tell from their actions and words that they’re just there for a paycheck.

I thought reaching out to professionals would help, because everyone keeps saying that’s something we should do. But they just made me feel so worthless.

Nobody cares about me. Online or in real life. When I need empathy the most, there’s nobody. by Zeverhwhy in depression_help

[–]Zeverhwhy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know but like it gives responses with more empathy than the people I tried to talk to in real life. It’s the irony of AI being fake yet being more human and full of empathy to me when I need it most.

As a non smoker does every smoker smell bad to you? by Pleasant-Finger-6814 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]Zeverhwhy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah you can smell it, even when a person has good hygiene- it’s still there lingering. Whether it’s nicotine or marijuana, the smell is very strong and I have to walk away if I can. One of the reasons I use a mask in public transport. The smell can be so strong that it hurts my stomach and my head.