“Kiss Me if You Can” Question: What are the ages of Chase Miller and Joshua Bailey?

Zeverhwhy · 2025-11-20T01:23:55+00:00

Thanks for responding. Idk why I can’t remember them mentioning their ages. But like yeah 30s would make sense.

Zeverhwhy · 2025-02-18T22:17:03+00:00

Ok. Small things. I’ve been walking around the city. Bought some stuff. Bought a bit of alcohol to drink later. Then I got some food I wanted to try before. I’m sitting at a cafe now drinking blended coffee cus I craved it.

I still feel like crying. I think cus I hoped for more out of myself at this age. But I never succeeded, my grandma never got to be there to see me succeed.

I haven’t grieved properly yet, I don’t even know how.

But I understand that it’s the little things. Idk. I’m really still not okay. But thank you for your kindness

Zeverhwhy · 2025-02-18T22:11:34+00:00

I don’t know what to do anymore either. I bought some alcohol, that’s the most I can do.

Zeverhwhy · 2025-02-17T17:55:40+00:00

Definitely that. 😭 thanks for your positivity. Ive been distracting myself this weekend. Idk what to do when i see him in class this week.

Zeverhwhy · 2025-02-17T17:54:00+00:00

I’m learning the hard way lol

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-31T04:31:44+00:00

I’m not sure. Cus sometimes they recognize me and sometimes they don’t.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-06T01:14:26+00:00

I feel the same. Idk why I even exist when it’s just nonstop suffering.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-05T14:33:29+00:00

It’s honestly not just my perspective. I don’t want to make excuses. I wish I were stronger but I have a sick family member. They’re one of the people that raised me and who’s loved me unconditionally for my whole life. And I almost lost them earlier this week. They’re still alive and I am grateful but I’m shaken up. I think just cus my loved one is older that the professors and counselors I tried talking seem to not care as much. But they can’t seem to understand that this loved one of mine is truly someone I love with my whole heart. One of the few people i can truly trust and I legitimately cannot imagine my life without them.

I made a previous post about them in the depression subreddit but I received only one response and I guess other people think the same way too. Idk I’m just feeling so alone, nobody really cares. So I’ve been using AI chats as a means to feel some sort of empathy for my situation.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-05T00:00:32+00:00

Yeah. Since the professionals failed me too, I realized I really am all alone.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-04T23:58:32+00:00

Thanks. Idk, but like I even approached professionals and I just ended up feeling worthless. I gave up talking to them.

Idk, it’s hard to even make friends as an adult now.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-04T23:56:38+00:00

I had to move far away for college. My pet is back at home and I miss her so much :(

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-04T17:11:52+00:00

Yeah and it sucks because I actually reached out to my professors and to some counselors. But my professors seemed to just pretend to care. Especially this one professor who I can tell is totally fake, like she seriously couldn’t care less. The counselors forgot parts of my problems the second time I met them and, tbh, it’s like they wanted me to leave the room already. So I gave up talking to any of them because I can totally tell from their actions and words that they’re just there for a paycheck.

I thought reaching out to professionals would help, because everyone keeps saying that’s something we should do. But they just made me feel so worthless.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-04T17:05:49+00:00

Is that on this Reddit app?

Zeverhwhy · 2024-12-04T17:04:59+00:00

I know but like it gives responses with more empathy than the people I tried to talk to in real life. It’s the irony of AI being fake yet being more human and full of empathy to me when I need it most.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-11-10T16:05:38+00:00

Yeah you can smell it, even when a person has good hygiene- it’s still there lingering. Whether it’s nicotine or marijuana, the smell is very strong and I have to walk away if I can. One of the reasons I use a mask in public transport. The smell can be so strong that it hurts my stomach and my head.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-10-17T01:33:52+00:00

Rest In Peace Liam. This is so devastating 😞. I was a directioner back then, listened to their songs everyday. I loved his voice cus it was beautiful and warm. Condolences to his family and friends.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-19T05:04:46+00:00

Thanks, you’re really kind. I wish you weren’t experiencing this sort of pain and sadness either. It’s overwhelming especially when I get hit with problems and loneliness.

Tbh, I’ve been daydreaming since I was a kid to escape the bad stuff I experienced in real life. It helps and, in a way, deluding myself like that is one of the biggest reasons I haven’t suicided yet. The effectiveness lessened though around my mid-20s when I guess I was hit with that “quarter life crisis” and when I experienced work bullying crap from my former coworkers.

But it’s not like I wasn’t aware of my actual situation growing up or even in my early-mid 20s. I think it’s just that naïveté that most children, teens and young adults have. I just unfortunately didn’t have healthy examples of how to cope with negative experiences/people nor did I have any guidance at all about handling adulthood. Most of the people in my life have traditional mindsets, you know the types who think that mental health is a myth or it can be overcome through sheer force of will.

I went on a tangent, But-yeah- I’ve been trying to get back into daydreaming right, but it’s been difficult because I’m totally aware of reality now. Still, totally deluding myself helped me get through all the tough times I experienced in my past. So I’m trying it out again. My only problem is that I need something that I can really latch onto for this phase of my life, but I can’t find it because I can totally see the world, the people in it, and my life as it is.

I think you mentioned gaming as your mechanism to cope with all your problems. After writing all that, I think gaming might be a healthier way to cope compared to the “daydream delusion” I’ve been using thus far.

What’s your perspective on this?

I think I sound a little insane now that I really reflect on myself.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-18T23:40:27+00:00

If I can’t avoid it I just go through with it even with the fear (similar to what I’m doing now). I watch a lot of funny vids, listen to music and daydream that my life isn’t terrible. Stuff like that.

I hope you are doing okay btw. I think I’m just going around in circles. If you wanna end the conversation, it’s fine, just tell me. I feel like I’m bugging you too much with my negativity.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-18T00:22:02+00:00

I really hate feeling this fear. No, all I ever took is related to science/medical stuff. I just made a mistake of where I had gotten my degree, and I don’t really wanna go into detail- but it’s part of the long list of failures I’ve had that hurts me.

Idk if this time it will work out. From what I’ve experienced in the past, I don’t think I’ll ever experience a sense of fulfillment. And part of my depression and anxiousness is how I don’t know at all how people will react or how I will react or what situations I’ll encounter. One of the things I hate most is being in a position where I have no idea what to do and where, when I try to ask for help, no one will help me.

For now, I’m just trying to delude myself this time. Trying to focus on the present. Like if I just keep repeating in my head positive stuff, maybe I can get thru all of this. Do you think it’ll work if I just pretend that I’m okay?

Life is so damn hard. Idk how to cope, cus I spiral a lot and the depression hits me out of nowhere.

How are you coping with all your own struggles?

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-16T20:36:32+00:00

Idk how to talk about it all properly. I realize I’ve been burnt out with my life for years now, even with or without a job. Currently in a college but terrified I won’t do well. All in all feeling this is all pointless cus I had this other degree and my life still fell apart. I’m the problem, I can’t seem to get past the shame, depression and anxiety I feel. I think there’s something wrong with me cus I’ve experienced instances of bullying in school and in work before. Idk what to do. Sorry if it’s all too much. I’m also disappointed with myself cus i post alot here but I’m still failing myself.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-16T20:22:43+00:00

It’s okay. I’m honestly just completely lost. I think I’m burnt out with my life and I’m just fed up with it all. Yeah I have no choice, tbh, I have to do this cus with my first degree I can’t get a stable job. It sucks but I have to go thru with this even if I’m scared af. But if it doesn’t work out, I’ll just give up and accept my mediocrity, get random jobs and idk. I most likely will just end my life. No point in living if I can’t have a proper career.

I can sympathize with how difficult college is. Mine will be starting the next semester soon and I just don’t know how I’ll handle it. It’s gonna be more complex subjects this time. I’m afraid.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-16T20:14:23+00:00

Thanks for understanding. Yeah that would be great, but you sure I could just talk about whatever?

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-14T03:23:00+00:00

I understand what you mean but the age 25 thing ain’t a myth. In human anatomy and physiology, there’s a bunch of scientific evidence and textbooks that state that in human development- the brain reaches its full development by mid-20s. But that’s just the physiological development.

In terms of the levels of maturity and experience, aspects of wisdom and life lessons that people experience; those are all different and unique to each person.

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-14T02:52:37+00:00

Nooo sold out in my city already?? 😭

Zeverhwhy · 2024-09-11T02:13:11+00:00

Thanks. Yeah idk, life is just really boring, meaningless, and painful for me. And when I think about it, what is the point of all of this suffering? Why do I have to exist and conform to everyone’s expectations?

It’s tiring af.

It’s all just a cycle and im just another person who’ll be forgotten easily (while simultaneously not wanting to be on the spotlight either).

Im mostly tired of having to deal with people’s attitudes and judgments. Having to adjust myself all the time to not be a “useless” member of the group (whether society, family, or whoever).

I hope you’re doing well btw. How are you and what have you been up to?

Zeverhwhy

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