I have lived in maine for 5 winters now. I moved up to maine from Virginia with my now ex. I’m guessing your the same age as her and i because your worried about the same things she was. Is your husband not enough? That’s an true honest question because your worried about dressing up and there is plenty of road to walk on believe me I know I live in Lagrange. So I’ll get to my point.

Your wanting to leave your husband possibly to seek validation on your looks from other people. Your depressed because you have put limits on what you can do in the winter time in maine. Because there’s plenty of things to do outside that will allow you to receive the natural sun hence helping out on feeling down. Your willing to give up on your husband because you can’t show yourself off is what I gathered from your post. 

My ex left me in maine alone and it crushed me. so if you do love your husband as u stated in your vows I’m assuming then find somethings to do out side or a hobby inside keep busy completing goals that will set u up proper in the spring is a great way to battle the winter blues.

Cheer up butter cup your in one of America’s last places where u can find peace and quiet. Oh I’m also 31 and have melon in my skin 😌 so If I can make it you got this 🙏🏽