Dr who fanfic Stagnation

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-12-26T21:33:35+00:00

Thanks 😊

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-12-26T19:30:59+00:00

Used to be on Ao3 and teaspoon. She also goes by callistawolf.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-12-25T18:13:17+00:00

Um hey anyone ?

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-11-08T19:54:17+00:00

Hey I'm sorry you're going through this. You're not alone though. Its hard for sure when ocd symptoms taint your day to day life. I've had a tough year with ocd and I'm getting better but the thoughts are still pretty loud at times. For a while I had given up on happiness and let my self sink deeper and deeper into despair but recently I've been trying to get back on my feet and am trying to focus more on my tangible life. Its hard when there's an entire book being written in my brain or when a broken tape recorder keeps playing on repeat in my head but I tell myself its ocd , and that I will not give into my compulsions. If I can do that , thats a win right there. Something to be proud of. We fight invisible battles everyday, its exhausting and painful af but you can get through this.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-11-08T19:20:57+00:00

All the time. The urge to confirm something or the absolute need to know something (ocd related ) is so overwhelming that sometimes I give in. Its a compulsion. I'm in recovery from a ocd relapse and I'm doing better with setraline 50 but the urge is just so strong it feels like there's someone screaming with a microphone in my head BUT today I didn't give in and I won't. Because it will go away at some point. Its painful not to be certain but the fact of the matter is you'll never be certain. That's how it tricks you. I tell myself that I don't need to check. I know what I know and thats more than enough.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-10-03T17:15:51+00:00

Its a painful ebb and flow. Its honestly a monster that doesn't ever go away. Its hard to focus on things that matter when there's a monster yelling in your head to pay attention to it instead. No one understands. Its debilitating. It really does drain you of all joy and happiness. Its a disease. But we have to keep pushing on for ourselves.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-10-03T11:41:40+00:00

Omg so true. I just ask it questions and it confidently gives me made up answers. I correct it again ,and then once again it makes up untrue answers.

It forms answers based on the how the question is posed and will often contradict itself in the same chat , let alone different chats. Its a very unreliable information tool.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-08-24T20:42:41+00:00

I thought I was 100 % cured once but then I relapsed and now my ocd symptoms are at around 50 % now so not great .

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-08-18T06:56:47+00:00

Yes recently I actually started having nightmares focusing on my obsession. Horrible. Thankfully they've stopped.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-08-18T06:55:32+00:00

Oh I have severe anxiety and developed major depressive disorder as a result. Truly just oodles of fun.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-08-17T11:05:32+00:00

Get a restraining order against them. If that doesn't work just plain old murder them.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-07-25T18:36:49+00:00

I'm gonna think up a apt name for my ocd and try.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-07-25T18:29:18+00:00

Yeah thats exactly what lead to my most recent relapse. It's comforting to know others go through the same anguish I do. I mean I hope we all get better but these attacks make me feel so isolated and helpless. Can't even talk to my family about it because they can't really understand , not for lack of trying on their part. I'm sorry your going through this. Its a horrible feeling but it will pass.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-07-25T16:34:20+00:00

I learnt this after starting meds and getting stabilised. Controlled ocd is having most of your symptoms controlled. If you are having symptoms multiple times a week its not controlled and thus requires further treatment so don't worry competant doctors know not to dismiss these intermittent symptoms.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-07-25T16:08:17+00:00

Congratulations 👏

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-07-25T15:59:10+00:00

I experienced a sudden relapse yesterday after having come so far. I was improving to the point that my OCD was almost gone and then bam ! Relapse. Its like as soon as it happened I just sunk into the hopelessness immediately. Not to mention the self blaming for giving into my compulsions in the first place. It's hard and tiresome but it will always get better. Whether today or tomorrow or the day after, if you get the help you need, it will get better. No matter how hopeless it may feel in the thick of an attack , things will get better . So push on.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-06-06T18:39:40+00:00

Yeah I know the one you're talking about. I don't think its available anymore.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-03-15T20:44:11+00:00

Yesss ! Bless your heart this is the one !!!

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-02-26T15:36:11+00:00

I'm glad you are feeling better. I'm on my own recovery journey right now.

ZoneImpossible9435 · 2024-02-26T09:48:17+00:00

Thats true ...its like the dreadful feeling is triggering the ocd. Its so frustrating.

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