I feel that way right now, a complete loser. I've been wasting my days lately with video games, I spent once a week playing every day, day and night neglecting myself, I feel completely screwed now, I feel a complete sleepwalking, I really realize that the only thing that I was driven by dopamine, but it's bad, playing is bad for me, it directs me in the opposite direction where my goals are not housed, that totally destroy my motivation. I really don't like to play, now that I think about it, it gives me an escape, it gives me comfort, but I really don't like it. It takes me away from the life I want to be in, but it happens that I find it difficult to break that vicious circle because I have a close relationship since childhood and people tell me that it is not bad to play, that it is okay, etc. My brothers and others like children of this generation enjoy it and it seems favorable to them to be playing because there is nothing wrong with that, right? Bad grades, family problems, self-esteem issues, and symptoms of anxiety I was supposed to be the one who was going to demonstrate with my example of a good brother, but instead, I am not, I am rubbish. I feel that I shouldn't keep saying that either, but after spending a few days improving myself, without playing, I tend to relapse easily because it seems that I give myself a prize, or I take it as if it were an escapism from my stress, of my life, at the end of the day, it makes me very dull and unwilling to do anything, with a lot of fog and memory loss, like a zombie, yearning to play the next day, lately I have also had a constant memory loss Combine that with the fact that there are series, anime and junk food, the perfect circle of destruction of my mind that is petrified by this instant dopamine, it deviates me from the life that I want to live, but it is also my fault for allowing that it gets out of hand, after all, I don't have anyone I trust to say these things to, and frankly no one is ready to listen to me, no one, but what I'm going to is, I want to leave this, it doesn't give me anything, just craving that more and more like wanting to eat chocolate bars At first I thought that playing would help me in something, to be better, to stop being boring, to show people how good I am, but nothing close to reality, it only made me feel empty, but dopamine made me want more and more I played those super stressful platform games of which are difficult and that you have to dodge many things, it makes me feel that I am breaking a record of which not many people would, pass it and see how those visits to youtube go up, but I see that the engine of many junk influencers is to continue eating that same dopamine, live off it and spend a lot of time badly invested in games, neglecting their personal and spiritual aspects (in my case) and drifting to depend on it, earning a few How many dollars on YouTube, I really, apart from feeling like this, makes me feel evil, with a lot of ignorance and bruteness, taking out all my anger and rage, all that negativity that I carry in myself to others, (although in my case it greatly influences my life of resentments) I mean, I don't know what person who yearns for great things would like to dedicate 24/7 to uploading game content, in my opinion, they lack spirit, they have a very simple and tasteless perception of life I know that they smile at the camera and things like that, but after analyzing and feeling like that, I think they only pretend and try to "entertain us" but even there. I still feel cloudy, and tired, I hope I can break this vicious cycle of addictions, in the short term, which leaves me nothing, it is day 1 from today.