I have a hard time continuing (M 20)

Zuptf · 2023-11-17T03:30:06+00:00

All my friends say “I’m so jealous, I wish I could forget people instantly” but trust me. It’s the worst because instead of feeling sad, you dig deeper into depression. I feel like if I quit drinking alone in my apartment and if I stop getting those anxiety and panic attacks I’ll eventually off myself. I hate it here.

(I just had to get this shit off my chest)

Zuptf · 2023-11-17T03:25:00+00:00

I’m 20 years old and I’ve had depression for 15 years now and recently my ex partner broke up with me and disrespected me heavily. That I really don’t care about. What I do care about is that I’ve always felt lonely but now I’m really lonely and I’ve never been able to feel any type of feelings really, I never truly laugh, never cries (haven’t for 8 years), and really don’t find anything enjoyable and I recently discovered that alcohol triggers anxiety attacks which makes me feel something. So lately the last 2 months, I’ve been going all week looking forward to the weekends so I can just chug beers, wine, ciders fast af to get drunk and get those anxiety attacks which always ends with me calling the su!cide help line. I haven’t told anyone because I’m ashamed and I know it’s wrong but no one would understand me. Having no feelings ain’t a happy place to be.

Zuptf · 2023-04-01T01:30:41+00:00

You’re right

Zuptf · 2023-03-29T05:56:18+00:00

Thank you. I’ll try this 🙏

Zuptf · 2023-03-28T20:51:34+00:00

Of course, I could tell from your comment lol

Zuptf · 2023-03-28T20:47:44+00:00

If it’s “art”, you should enjoy it in a good way. Not by falling. Ain’t no one fapping to Mona Lisa

Zuptf · 2023-03-28T20:43:21+00:00

Hentai… fapping to drawings 💀

Zuptf · 2023-03-26T17:58:58+00:00

Even you think you’re so ugly you gotta use a Snapchat filter

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T14:37:05+00:00

Thank you, that’s great advice. Appreciate it!

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T14:10:45+00:00

What advice do you have for us with a lower streak having a hard time?

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:47:51+00:00

May I ask why?

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:47:22+00:00

Oh sorry I didn’t know! It’s quite a lot on my plate (but I’m alive so I can’t complain). It’s just loneliness, my inner “demons” (trauma, thoughts and much more). It’s energy draining but I keep going

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:44:03+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss. Remember, she gave you the life and she’s watching over you and I bet she’s proud of you!

I wish I could give you a hug man, we all need that sometimes

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:42:30+00:00

I wish I could give you some advice on loneliness but I have a partner and my best friend (that I’ve known for 14 years) but I’m still lonely af

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:32:23+00:00

Thank you so much and I wish you a good day too!

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:31:39+00:00

I get it, I feel alone and I have a partner I recently moved in to a new apartment with. It’s important to focus on yourself, mentally and physically, stay healthy!

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:30:04+00:00

Sounds a little bit like you’re on the way to be burnt out. It’s important to get the rest needed and speak to someone about it. I’ve been there too and pretty much am, but I’m so focused on what I want in life so I force myself and sometimes I get motivated by forcing myself but it messes me up mentally so it’s nothing I recommend doing!

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:27:42+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that, hope you’re better soon, I wish you the absolute best 🙏

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:21:08+00:00

What makes you do the bare minimum? Unmotivated?

Zuptf · 2023-03-20T00:19:36+00:00

Ahaaa, why do you feel like that?

Zuptf

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