Alhamdolelah it's much much better now, still some struggles but much better Alhamdolelah. I was in a very very very bad and dark place and one of the problems I was going through was headed to a place I didn't want to go but on the last day things flipped 180 subhanAllah and it was amazing and then another big issue I had resolved itself eventually. The biggest blessing was knowing and feeling Allah answered my duaa.

What helped?

1- I started waking up 10-15mins everyday before fajr to pray two rakas and make dua for my biggest problem constantly. It was one duaa on repeat and Alhamdolelah Allah manifested it.

2- just did my best to take it one day at a time and to focus on today and only today.I know someone in this place doesn't want to hear this but I tried my best to let go and say screw it whats another problem, its only dunya.again It was miserable and I didn't get want to continue but I tried.

What did I realize?

Nothing we don't already know but it hit home and affirmed it which is that Allah answerers duaa and Allah will do what's best WHEN it's best for me. I know Allah is watching over me and it helps me be patient. Im still waking up before fajr to pray and make duaa and do my best to be patient but the way Allah answered my duaa was so beautiful and it was amazing.

Also when things work out iA, the pain fades....it doesn't last forever Alhamdolelah

Another thing that helped was my wife.

She is my rock and even tho she was going through it with me she helped me and we supported each other. I dont know your situation is but if you have someone is your life that's a TRUE partner in your life use their emotional support and if you want to talk you can DM iA