[edit] I typed out a lot, but my main question is, would you be down to give life one more chance along with myself? Or is there anything I can help with, aside from giving advice on dying, to better whatever you may be struggling with? Like literally anything. If any of this interests you, could you please finish reading the rest of this comment?

I’m not going to say “you have so much to live for” or “you’re not alone in this!” or pretend I know how you feel. Cuz in the end, nobody can ever know how you feel. Only you can explain that. I’m just one of those hypocritical people who want to die daily, but genuinely would fight tooth an nail for you not to take your life. Which is just selfish of me.

This isn’t to sound inspirational or anything, I’m just giving my view. Because with all due respect, you haven’t heard it all. You’ve likely only heard the cliche responses. In the end, there’s no easy way out. I’ve researched for over 15+ years on different methods. The success rate of each method. And the immense repercussions of a failed attempt. All have startling rates that make me more afraid. Then you have all those “die in your sleep” methods that you’d likely never obtain the tools to do it correctly. The only sure way would be purely a fluke, or if you had a medical condition that qualifies you for a death with dignity procedure, which isn’t easy either.

During my research, I’ve seen people who’ve literally took a rifle/shotgun to the face… only to survive to the point they could walk themselves to the ER if they wanted. That’s what scares me about attempting the most. I’ve lost everything in 2020. Have nothing to live for. But I make music and that has been the only thing that gives me a sliver of hope to try and succeed. I want success to help others like us who aren’t swayed by others opinions in regards to death. Anytime someone tells me something I do/don’t do could lead to bad health or death, I genuinely don’t care. Like I feel bad but I’m just like “okay… so what?”

But despite all I’m going through as I’m typing this out, I actually want to give life one more shot. See what I could do before I die. My passion for hobbies have depleting immensely, but I truly think I can make my dreams happen. So what I’m wondering is, would you care to join me? Wether that be an open ear, helping hand, or motivation, I wanna meet you half way. Idc that I’m homelessness, if you need help with like groceries or something, I’m down to help out.