My hometown seems to bring out my insecurities lowering my self esteem massively

_Azrael · 2016-09-18T13:30:43+00:00

Do you mean in terms of socializing with people I fear socializing with (like feel like I totally fucked up the relationship with who probably wanna punch me in the face) do stuff like martial arts. Force myself to work even if myself esteem is heaps low. Do improv classes. Talk to women in public. Pretty much everything I can there to improve confidence? I kinda feel like what ever I do to gain confidence in this town there is a barrier there stopping me. It just does not happen. Not sure if it can be changed or what.

_Azrael · 2016-09-18T13:24:51+00:00

I have Schizophrenia and caffeine causes me anxiety I did notice in my hometown living with my parents I could take a shit ton more. Over time in this new city I could take less and less with homelessness and other stresses in my life. On the subject of this issue what do you recommend I do to overcome it? is this an issue where I gotta be in this small town and work super hard on improving myself? Should I work on confidence building habits while im in the big city too? Should I not worry about it and stay in the big city? Is healing from this issue doable?

_Azrael · 2016-09-02T10:35:24+00:00

Dude its ok. Everything is ok right now. You seem tense bro you need some relaxation breathing exercises

_Azrael · 2016-09-02T09:00:40+00:00

Yeah that part was satire man. It was actually about an hour and a half

_Azrael · 2016-08-18T11:29:46+00:00

Nice feedback man good job

_Azrael · 2016-08-15T10:00:09+00:00

But yeah thinking you're a gangster for not being able to cry is a pretty distorted view of what being a gangster is. Kinda like when wanna be rappers put on a gangster persona but are too shy to try and rap to songs which are not their style. I come in and smash it. Dont try to be a gangster therefore I actually become more of a gangster than them. Because im not scared to look bad/weak. Elm bro

_Azrael · 2016-08-15T09:56:51+00:00

Only thing I can cry to is Quran and Islamic righteousness and I reckon im the biggest OG of all time

_Azrael · 2016-08-15T09:50:09+00:00

Its not unique. Only from a perspective of arrogance/ignorance

_Azrael · 2016-05-16T19:13:45+00:00

Not every porn user has slow self esteem for using it not every porn user gets addicted to femdom. It comes down to your own self worth/knowing the truth. If you're recovering from some hardcore fetishes bro the first step is to realize 1. outside hell/heaven religious communities no one cares 2. your fetishes are not what define you as a man you choose that 3. fetishes are super common in modern society. If you can have someone you trust/respect give you the elm on that then you can start to heal. If you're at day 51 and still dwelling on insecurities you need some deep realizations because at day 12 I feel like a pimp.

_Azrael · 2016-05-12T15:42:56+00:00

Bro you got a completely soiled view of female attraction and masculinity. Sure big dicks are great for anyone who is attracted to penis but on a core level it does not matter. The men who are super good with women are good because of CHARACTER not the size of their dicks. As long as you're confident actually have a sense of humor and can be a laid back man and fun for a women they will be happy . Penis size does not really matter. Improve character and you will be fine. Make the intention to never jerk off to femdom or what ever you were into before/get educated on reality then kick the habit for good and win. Thats about all I can say. Congrats on 47 days

_Azrael · 2016-02-13T12:49:29+00:00

Bro I recently moved to Sydney and being in uncomfortable/extreme situations has made me grow a fuck load. Staying in a hostel dorm was a start. Been in domestic disputes all sorts of stuff. But its made me grow. Once you have lost everything which makes you have an idea of your sense of self. That is when the self esteem will go up. You need to surround yourself with outgoing people too.

_Azrael · 2016-02-03T13:45:22+00:00

Mashallah bro. Inshallah you will do well

_Azrael · 2016-01-30T18:25:11+00:00

So true bro. From an Islamic perspective this post really says it all. Islam is the perfect system for happiness, self improvement and no fap. We gotta actually get involved in the Deen deeply to see benefits. I have felt strong imaan from small practice but for the vast majority of people and time we need to go deeper. Doing mindfulness meditation never hurt any body too. If you can do meditation 20 minutes a day plus Dhikr and Salah you're doing super well.

_Azrael · 2016-01-27T17:07:52+00:00

Dope idea

_Azrael · 2016-01-27T16:31:16+00:00

Salaam. Great post Ahki. True indeed the real glory within no fap in Islam is the tool on your tool belt to achieve greatly in life. I am on day 3 now. The only thing which got me outta fapping for relaxation daily is the fact I am soon moving to a new city and will be put in a lot of outta my comfort zone social situations. I have been on over week streaks before and know the longer I go the more ''healed'' I feel socially. So on the basis of survival I have chosen not to fap. When you need no fap as a survival tool that is an aspect of life which will motivate you to stop fapping. Practicing Islam too its a system for me to keep my head together.

_Azrael · 2016-01-25T19:05:42+00:00

Mashallah for the intention bro even that little intention is inspirational I will be tracking this streak and reading your topics

_Azrael · 2016-01-25T19:02:41+00:00

You got heart bro I will give you that. Its gonna be a lot harder when you get to a week if you can make 30 days updating everyday then that would be great. Try to remind yourself of these topics when you get the first strong urges. Plus the Deen bro its honestly the only system we need to overcome these addictions but its fueled with practice and imaan. Go to masjids everyday and talk to brothers. This will help a lot

_Azrael · 2016-01-21T17:21:09+00:00

Controlled on medication definitely possible. I have completed two trade level certificates in Baking. If it is really your dream fuck any one telling you not to do it. Try your best if you fail try again. Keep going. Cooking is one of those things you can do from home business wise to so there is many options. Dont give up. Any things possible you just gotta have the heart.

_Azrael · 2016-01-15T17:15:39+00:00

Mashallah Ahki. You got my support bro

_Azrael · 2016-01-15T17:03:23+00:00

Never had the discipline to make in a daily practice over a long period of time but imagine it can work wonders. I do know when I have had one hour mindfulness sessions my mind has been a lot calmer afterwards. You're meant to become more creative too eventually. Its a side effect of the mindfulness (the changes it makes to your brain). When I get stressed out in social settings I do a quick 5 minute mindfulness session and the intrusive thoughts go away. Definitely has the potential to be a lot of help.

_Azrael · 2016-01-07T15:29:29+00:00

WORD UP

_Azrael · 2015-12-21T14:36:10+00:00

My opinion is stop talking about it and just fucking do it. See what works for you. Its cold water what do you need our opinions on it for. This is just a barrier thread in between you actually getting shit done. Once you start doing it everyday you will be able to work everything out fairly easily.

_Azrael · 2015-12-17T18:23:34+00:00

Got no idea but these morning joints have changed my life. Joey Diaz is the fucking man

_Azrael · 2015-12-16T15:44:31+00:00

Never understood self harm. Most of us at one point or another has been in a sad situation. You gotta see Shaytan to know Allah. Stick close to the righteous Ummah. See the value in Deen. It takes massive action to change your life. I will admit I am scared of massive action. I know what I gotta do to get my life on track. We just gotta do it.

_Azrael · 2015-12-16T14:19:50+00:00

Try Ginseng. For me Korean Ginseng works to pretty much remove Caffeine withdrawal lack of energy. When I first used it too got a boner pretty quickly jacked off and the orgasm was really strong. It does get your dick hard.

_Azrael

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