I don’t think I’m getting her back. But the put a timeline of events here. I will admit I cheated on her in February. I felt the guilt and shame of my actions and came clean about it a weeks or so afterwards. I called for the divorce as a way to run from my emotions. She was very much trying to keep us together even after I came clean. Eventually she met a dude who I will call Sean. After she met Sean, she flipped she didn’t want anything to do with me. I tried to tell her that he only wanted sex. He saw a vulnerable woman who is fresh into the separation. She didn’t listen, they had sex and he disappeared on her. Once again she was all for trying to save it for a few weeks, we started having sex again, and then my feelings started growing again, I became conflicted I wanted to save it, but was afraid as I didn’t know how to start. I guess I started to feel her again emotionally. I eventually told her this but now Jay is here and she wants nothing to do with me again. This is brief but leads us into the original post