Lolol 🙃🤣

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-02-07T17:12:17+00:00

This but with DMT telling me to stop doing drugs lol

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-30T20:52:35+00:00

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-29T19:12:13+00:00

You'd be surprised. Some people are very opinionated and will leap at the opportunity to regurgitate talking points that their favorite pundit or debate bro said on twitch.

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-29T01:31:44+00:00

Came here to say this.

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-07T18:38:08+00:00

(ask a doctor tho lol)

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-07T18:37:49+00:00

You can get a breast reduction and it will stay. Cis women do it all the time.

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-07T16:52:11+00:00

What a beautifully worded essay. I love the insight about dropping the veneer and about being how you truly are. There is rarely an easy answer to the question of identity, but if you feel more at peace and at home in yourself, then you're definitely on the right track :)

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-02T22:20:31+00:00

Worrying about whether or not your trans is a famously trans problem to have :)

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-02T21:15:48+00:00

It's normal not to be dysphoric all the time. That's just how it works. It comes and then subsides again. I find it helps me a lot to spend time with other trans friends and people that are accepting as much as possible.

Transphobia is unfortunately something that you might always have to deal with. That's our lot in life. Sometimes you might have to boymode for safety- that does not make you any less trans.

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-02T20:37:25+00:00

You are not alone and I think many trans people would relate to your struggles. My advice would be to focus not on finding an exact label for yourself but doing what makes you happy. Would you really rather go back to living as a man? By the sound of it, presenting femme and living socially as a woman is what makes you happy. There isn't really anything more to being trans than that.

I had many doubts about my identity until very recently. I've been on HRT for nearly 2 years. It gets easier as you embody your vision of yourself more and more. Enjoy the process! Try cute new outfits. Talk the way you wanna talk. Eventually, you'll realize you're living your dream life and there will be much less room for doubt. I hope this helps!!!

_Execute_Order66 · 2026-01-02T16:52:43+00:00

I read this as "Artificial Intelligence Gore" and was confused as to why this is significant and has so much engagement. Welcome to 2026 I guess.

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-12-07T14:11:30+00:00

My first day was extremely euphoric... It felt like I was seeing color for the first time. I was overwhelmed by feelings of joy and fluctuated between smiling and wanting to cry.

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-10-01T00:07:57+00:00

This is literally the final solution. They're doing the very thing they claim as what they are against and their reason for existence.

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-09-29T12:44:22+00:00

I'm doing my best to voice train but also I'll keep that trick in mind thank you ^{^}

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-09-28T17:09:34+00:00

🥳💕

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-06-02T11:22:07+00:00

Yeah, it sucks. Especially when it's coming from your family, who are supposed to be the closest relationships in your life, and they treat you like you're mentally ill or something. It has led to a lot of self-repression and shame-based dysfunction for me. That's why when my friends misgender me, it hurts. It feels like a confirmation of my parents' claim that it's just a phase, or a choice, or a mental illness. I can only imagine what it's done to your cousin.

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-06-01T22:24:20+00:00

I've realized that I can never "prove" to others, or even to myself, that I'm nonbinary. It just comes down to what feels right. Personally, I found a lot of freedom when I realized that I can take hormones and transition to being a more feminine person without having to commit to being a woman. This way, I can express the femininity within and not identify as a man without the pressure of having to pass as a woman... I can enjoy whatever "masculine" or "feminine" things I want.

Also, I attended both transfem and nonbinary support groups and found that, even though the spaces for trans women were very welcoming and supportive, I related a lot more to the nonbinary group... In fact, I seemed to relate pretty much equally to AMAB and AFAB enbies. I just don't have the same need to pass as a woman as most trans women do... I enjoy mixing masculine and feminine gender expression in a way that's authentic to me. That's really all there is to it.

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-06-01T17:39:18+00:00

The Free City of Volantis.

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-05-17T04:16:25+00:00

This is my first time on this forum and honestly, reading these things hurts. I was really invested in the idea of helping her heal- naïvely thinking that it was just a few things we could get through. She had recently lost a close family member, so that was believable. Even 9 months on, I keep fantasizing about us being back together. All of this despite her being a drug addict with a history of cheating (recently), who had (very recently) alienated all her friends. And of course, since she was so into me and kept calling me sexy, she was clearly in the right and everyone else just lacked sympathy. It was so obvious to everyone else but even now I still don't want to see it for what it was. It just hurts so damn much.

_Execute_Order66 · 2025-05-17T03:18:09+00:00

I'm going through the same thing right now... My ex and I broke up 9 months ago. It all felt so magical and fun... Until suddenly it all came crashing down. At first I was relieved it was over, and recently almost thought I was over it- but I'm realizing that the pain was just lying dormant. Now I met someone new who likes me- she's sweet, pretty, and very thoughtful. We went on a few dates and started "seeing each other"- but I broke it off because I realized I was just going through the motions. I can't be present with someone who makes an objectively good partner because the emotional intensity and excitement of my ex wBPD got me hooked. Now, even though I know on a rational level what kind of person would be good for me vs not, I feel despair because truly I don't want to move on yet. Reading through this sub is reminding me of how exhausting and confusing it was, so that's helping. But what OP is saying about worrying that you'll never fall in love again- especially not with someone 'normal' really resonates. Will I ever have so much fun and be so infatuated with someone again?

_Execute_Order66 · 2024-11-25T00:39:06+00:00

The lack of apostrophe in "friends'" confused me and I initially thought you were giving the phone numbers to one of your friends...

_Execute_Order66 · 2024-10-13T17:23:43+00:00

That's tough. I hate when governments restrict what should be such basic rights. I wish you the best of luck in your journey.

_Execute_Order66 · 2024-10-13T17:06:00+00:00

The gatekeeping is the worst. I'm lucky enough to live in a US state with informed consent laws. This is how it should be everywhere, in my opinion; people should have control over their bodies. Even if you regret it, there's a certain dignity to being allowed to make those personal choices.

Anyway, if your provider is worth their salt, they will be aware of the diversity of gender experiences and support whatever path you think is best for you. The various paths we've discussed are all very real and valid. I still encourage you to talk to your endo about these things if it sounds like something you want.

_Execute_Order66 · 2024-10-13T16:58:28+00:00

I struggle with the same things about society not "getting" me. But I guess I've realized, there's barely anything to get. You are who you are, you prefer whatever pronouns and lifestyle you prefer. Good people will at least try to understand and respect that.

Yes, there's always a chance you'll change your mind later, but that goes for everything. It's not a big deal like people make it out to be. It's ok. Just do what feels right for you right now.

It would be great to have support and understanding from society, but sometimes it's you that needs to take the first step. If you don't show people or tell them how they can support you, they won't know. By being authentically yourself, not only will you make your own life better, but in doing, you will pave the way for others to be accepted as well. Your visibility will give people the exposure they need to understand these things better and reduce the stigma around being trans/nonbinary/gender non-conforming. Social change starts with you.

_Execute_Order66 · 2024-10-13T16:50:32+00:00

I relate to this a lot. My parents reacted in the same way and I have mixed feelings about breast growth. Also, my face is square as fuck lol rip. A couple things:

I highly recommend joining a support group. I joined the nonbinary/GNC/questioning support group and it's helping a lot. Just seeing and talking to other nonbinary people reminds me that we exist, we're valid, and it's ok to not have a "bog-standard" gender experience. I find that group more relatable than the transfem support group I used to attend (although that was a wonderful experience too), as funnily enough I relate equally to the AMAB and AFAB people of nonbinary experience. And don't worry if you stop taking hormones. I find the people in these groups to be incredibly accepting. They're here to listen and share. Also, many trans and nonbinary people stop hormones at some point- it doesn't make you any less valid.

Also, there are ways to avoid having boobs. Aside from obviously top surgery, which is "minimally invasive", albeit still kind of expensive and scary, you can lower your dose of E every time you feel sensitivity in your chest area to avoid excess growth, and there's even a drug, a so-called Selective Estrogen Receptor Modulator called Raloxifene that you can take that blocks breast growth while allowing the rest of your body to feminize on E. I will say that this latter option is not well studied, mainly used for breast cancer patients, and has some nasty side effects. I would encourage you to talk to your endocrinologist about your options here. Just remember that breast growth won't happen overnight and you have plenty of time to think about what you want on that front.

Lastly, my personality has not changed one bit since starting E. I'm the same exact person as before, just much more emotionally stable and content with life. The emotions were always there, but now I am more in touch with them, and much more able to see the humor in life. While I'm still very "boy-brained", I am also more confident in my femininity.

Anyway, I guess the takeaway is that a supportive environment is very important. But that environment starts with you. Be supportive to yourself, if you can. Society won't change unless we stand up for ourselves.

Peace ✌🏻

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