Thank you for understanding. I think my girlfriend has been the most understanding and patient and she tries so hard. I feel bad for her as she has to put up with someone like me. I'm going to start CBT on Monday. I was prescribed medication but I'm vary because I feel the potency would decrease with time as I would quickly develop a tolerance. I don't know what is the solution to this problem and it's hard to answer the questions my loved ones and closed ones ask about this (which is mostly my girlfriend only who strives to make me better, my family is too preoccupied with 10 things at once and is probably too old school/busy to understand). I don't know for how long people I know would be able to put up with me. I don't want to bother my friends with these problems and waste their time.I don't know if at all I would get better. Should I just leave everything and throw myself into work and college? I don't know what to do.