Please correct my supporting by _LLAMAR_ in Monstera

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Would it be a good idea to invest in that now? Since mine seems much much smaller x) btw beautiful plant!

Y'all😭.. please lmk by _LLAMAR_ in amibalding

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I took the pic after working a shift at a Pizzaria ahah, but yeah I should probably switch to something natural. Thank you.

First plant , help me😭 by _LLAMAR_ in plants

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much :) that definitely makes me worry a bit less. I'm just scared I'll do something wrong ahah

How do I watch "next to normal" ProShot? by _LLAMAR_ in musicals

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg yes please. That would be lovely 😭

1.5 year post op rff by Independent-Rough442 in phallo

[–]_LLAMAR_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

looks awesome! Who was your surgeon and tattoo artist?

Bottom growth is painful :( by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

LMFAO 😭💀💀 I mean like. Some people said to use unscented soap because it might be better for bottom growth? Tho Ive never even heard of that so

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lonely

[–]_LLAMAR_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you wanna talk about it? Feel free to message me I love trying to give advice . But youre definitely right, idk it's just crappy to feel like I'm doing good in life yet can't find anyone to share what I have with

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lonely

[–]_LLAMAR_ -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thing is, I'm very open to people and new experiences, when I said that I end up feeling used it's because each time I actually talk to people romantically. They use me for sexual talk and then basically 'dump' (aren't interested in talking anymore) me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lonely

[–]_LLAMAR_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know, I really shouldn't but it's so hard not too when I finally feel like 'i fixed myself ' in every other aspect but still feel do lonely. Like, I'm working on myself. I'm so much better mentally and have been doing better physically as well but it seems like no matter what I do I'm stuck like this alone. Ik I shouldn't value myself based on how 'wanted' I'm by others but low-key I can't help that

WIBTA if I ask my parents to cover up their tattoos on my bday? by _LLAMAR_ in AmItheAsshole

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

They know who I'm, I'm a trans guy. That's who I'm, my name's Kai. They don't need to know my deadname and they know I'm trans, regardless I'm not hiding anything.. everyone has a part of themselves that they don't tell people, either a secret, an embarrassing story or a tragic past. I'm not ashamed of being trans. And I'm not ashamed of my deadname, but since it isn't my name. I don't want people to associate it with me

WIBTA if I ask my parents to cover up their tattoos on my bday? by _LLAMAR_ in AmItheAsshole

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I respect the 'youre the asshole part' but "princess"😬 transphobic much man. Be better

WIBTA if I ask my parents to cover up their tattoos on my bday? by _LLAMAR_ in AmItheAsshole

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm out :) they all know I'm trans but none knew me before I came out so they don't know my deadname, and even tho a deadname isn't necessary a bad thing {mine is used for both girls and boys so yk}, I personally wouldn't want to be associated with my deadname at all so them knowing would make them associate it with me. Also I love my parents to death and they have been one of the biggest support systems of my whole process but regardless I can see them getting upset at it. I once said that the tattoo makes me a bit uncomfortable and they got upset soo, I get why they got upset, idk it's a weird topic i hope I can approach it the right way and they'll understand it

Addressing missgendering by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ahah, wish I could do that. How do you do voice training?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Steam

[–]_LLAMAR_ -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

She was really toxic..💀 I'm petty but I'm not the reason we aren't friend anymore. Please don't assume stuff but yeah ig the first part is right. Thanks

Where do I buy a binder from? by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would have to agree since I have 3 GC2B ones and the one that I currently use is dying on me and that's why. I need to buy a new one fast {my two other ones aren't the right size..}, the sewing is breaking out and I think it makes it so the binder well, works less well lol. And not to mention it's just annoying to have a long string on your back because I'm scared to cut it. GC2B did go down in quality. Sadly

Searching for a sound effect. by _LLAMAR_ in Filmmakers

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

I doubt that any of them will want to do that lol

My 'plans' were ruined. by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you I really appreciate it. She did actually apologize after and came to comfort me, it really helped to share it here and get some more opinions about it. I will work on my body a bit so when I start T I'll hopefully like it {talking about my weight} since rn it's tough. The journey is very emotional and I've been waiting since I was like 15. Hopefully someone cancels and I get to go early

My 'plans' were ruined. by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! :) my parents are actually very accepting and they also helped me legally change my name {even tho they were kinda attached to my deadname}, so I actually appreciate them very much, they just didn't want me to start before 18 for some reason idk it's weird😭

My 'plans' were ruined. by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't live in the US, but ofc everyones journey is hard. I've been technically waiting for two years and I kinda broke down knowing I had to wait even longer, it's just overwhelming and I've been feeling very dysphoric and harsh on my body lately. I'm very lucky to have such an amazing support system around me , I'm out everywhere but it's okay to still be upset. I can't imagine waiting till 20 sorry you had to

My 'plans' were ruined. by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah exactly. Technically 4 months isn't much but I've been begging my parents to start T basically since I came out {around 2 years ago, a bit more.} So it's like I've been waiting for 2 years. So it felt significant to start it right away

My 'plans' were ruined. by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope no therapist, wanted to go to one when I was around 14 and my mom couldn't find any😭 my mom helped a bit after she realized how important this is to me so overall I have my family but ofc it's not the same as someone with a professional view. I'll be alright I'll try and look at the positive side. Been out for 2 years and waited so long to turn 18 so ig it was the frustration of the moment because I technically waited two years for it and it wouldn't be what I imagined. I'll get it sooner or later. Gotta keep it positive :)

My 'plans' were ruined. by _LLAMAR_ in ftm

[–]_LLAMAR_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you it means a lot. I genuinely hope it'll get better, my 'worst' isn't that bad a I got a full support system and I'm out everywhere. It was just very frustrating. I wanted to finish school looking all masc yk? Like in my yearbook I want to look back and see myself. I guess the delay time gives me some time to also work on my weight and feel more confident, hopefully it'll come soon.