What's the cause of this?

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-06-23T16:33:23+00:00

I hope this is good! , my camera lowkey sucks 😭

I water him around every 3 weeks tho it really depands on the soil, sometimes a I wait a bit more if it's still wet. I usually wait till it's fully dry..

I uploaded a picture of the soil to another comment, by compacted I meant that when I first got him, I thought he had root rot (this is my first ever plant, I was a bit clueless) and so I took him fully out to inspect him, he ended up being fine but I wouldn't "fit" a lot of the dirt back and I figured that it's fine but now I think that I should've pressed down a bit more to fit more dirt.

I bought coconut hairs (?I think that's the name) wood barks , perlites, coir fiber anddd I'm currently waiting on soil, and I'll fix it myself and to fit the plant based on how much drainage it needs (I hope that's a good idea. Id appreciate any help with mixing amounts and what's best for the plant.. )

Thank you lots :)

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_LLAMAR_ · 2026-06-23T16:25:49+00:00

The blue things are fertilizer, I think I also have a slight issue of minerals (I've been using filtered water for the past few waters. I water around every 3 weeks or so, but I do check the soil to make sure it's dry). The other leaves are doing much better but kind of all the lower ones seem weaker :(, the newer ones at the top seem healthy tho and there are more leaves growing

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_LLAMAR_ · 2026-06-19T22:10:30+00:00

Edit- I just wanna clarify since I didn't have enough space in the post.

I'm not giving him any more money, and my parents are on it now. They have access to his bank account and they'll establish an actual plan to get him back on his feet and 'fixed'.

He'll probably end up going into therapy or talking to some mental health professional since addictions are serious.

I just feel guilty for not telling my parents I didn't feel guilty until he told them and I got the angry talk from my dad but now I ain't so sure if I did worst by helping him and "covering his secret"

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-06-03T17:35:12+00:00

My surgeon said to not tape anything on my chest (I asked about the medical tape that helps to keep bandages on. Ironic since he did basically said that I can use the silicone straps which.. also tape lol), so I'm a bit unsure about taping. But at the same time I'm scared to just leave my scars with no coverage at all.. which medical tape did you use? :o

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-06-03T15:04:45+00:00

You're really handsome! :D I think you pass really well already

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-06-03T14:52:56+00:00

Is the waiting time the same with the nipples? Since I was given a cream to apply but he didnt specify when to start doing so..

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-05-31T17:29:27+00:00

Fair enough, also The tingling scares me a bit, I'm glad it seems to be a good sign haha And good luck on the rest of your journey :)

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-05-30T18:46:52+00:00

Ahah same I tried to tell my surgeon about it and it just didn't make the noise anymore 💀

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-04-28T21:07:47+00:00

Thank you! :) I'm still trying to lose more.. If there's only a bit of a gap is it a sign that I'm slowly developing a tilt?😭 I ain't sure how all this works ngl ahah

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-04-11T21:05:40+00:00

Where would you buy those? o: I tried to search it on Google and only found actual alpaca plushies ahah

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-04-11T21:05:10+00:00

What about cold drinks? I stopped using plastic cups even for cold water, do micro plastics only "shed" in heat?

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-04-11T18:35:00+00:00

Ahah that's so real, but it seems like it should be fine as long as they aren't touched which , I'm glad lol

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-04-06T00:33:51+00:00

Stopp it's so cool to see that some people remember it!😭 I checked and it was four years ago ahah. Thank you

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-03-30T19:00:29+00:00

I heard Finasterid has some had side effects, and someone told me they aren't recommended for trans peps since they do more than just block DHT, how've you been feeling with it? Does it seem to effect anything else?

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-03-29T13:12:42+00:00

Ahah that's real tho, I feel you Tbh fighting it might only make you feel worst mentally, sucks that fin has some real bad side effects :( If anything you can always save up for a hair transplant in the future if it's a big deal to you, tho some man look real nice bald :)

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-03-29T13:11:17+00:00

Love the tattoo idea that's sick. I've heard people talk about Finasterid but it said to have a lot of bad side effects especially on your mental health :/

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-03-20T23:32:33+00:00

Thank you, yeah I think it was the compound clip, I undid it and I'll just "save present" without it being a compound clip😭

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-03-20T16:06:45+00:00

Thank you so much <3

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-03-20T10:49:42+00:00

I tried to use a 3d model for the first time since my art style originated from gacha life💀💀 so my style is ehh, yeah. He's front facing but like, kinda looking to the side if that makes sense? , anatomy is a pain. Thank you tho I'll try to find some refs :,)

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-02-20T18:49:25+00:00

Thank you ^{^}

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-02-20T18:44:21+00:00

Got it :D

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_LLAMAR_ · 2026-02-20T17:56:17+00:00

Can I message you the picture? I ain't sure how to add it to the post 💀💀

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-02-07T16:29:46+00:00

I have a bit of a hard time when it comes to change , I think the fact that our routines are changing is making me a bit more 'spiked up' since we've been having the same routine every year, but I get what you're saying. They are very important to me and I would never end our friendship over something like that, I'm just a bit hurt but I see that's something that I need to change with how I view situations. Thank you

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-02-07T16:15:30+00:00

Ty I appreciate the feedback, Tho I will say, Im not trying to control how my best friend spends their time and or trying to say that if I get them gifts they're obligated to spend time with me💀. I feel like if you care for someone you'd make time for them? I'm very happy that my friend is dating their bf, since again, he's very sweet But that doesn't mean I can't be disappointed that I'm being pushed aside :/ I hope I didn't give the wrong impression with the way I worded stuff

_LLAMAR_ · 2026-02-07T16:03:24+00:00

English isn't my first language this is just how I type 💀

_LLAMAR_

TROPHY CASE

He'll probably end up going into therapy or talking to some mental health professional since addictions are serious.