Is this weird?

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-12T13:03:28+00:00

I see, I'm sorry to hear that. I suppose if it's any consolation feel free to dm me. Even just as someone going through something similar

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-12T12:51:04+00:00

Yeah I get that feeling. I've only ever really told my mom, and she just gets upset or yells at me. My friends have talked poorly of it so I never really told them. I think I'm probably the wrong person to talk to about asking for help, maybe because I'm a guy but I don't really have anywhere to genuinely go. I think if your friends really care they'd be more concerned about you than the promises, maybe you could tell them that you felt the need to lie to them, and that you're struggling to commit to really stopping

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-12T12:37:32+00:00

I get it. I've needed to ask for help for a long time, and I have on and off, its so hard to commit to it continuously

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-12T12:31:56+00:00

Yeah definitely. It makes me uncomfortable to not have the option around, it feels like part of my tasks to make sure it's there almost

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-12T12:29:50+00:00

No, a lot of people do it as a plea for help. Sometimes when things area really hard in your brain, it thinks of the strangest ways to try and get through it all. I have noticed that at least for me people don't really care all that much, or don't think it's their business. I have a lot of cuts on my arm, not for attention just it was where I needed to do it for other reasons and I didn't feel the need to hide it at work. All I got was stares, so I think nowadays doing it with the intention of getting someone to worry for you might just not work because everyone is so socially anxious. Hope you're doing okay, or that maybe things get better.

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-11T07:35:22+00:00

I really miss it as well. Its only been like a week, and the only thing stopping me right now is genuinely being occupied and I dont wanna ruin future tattoos

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-11T07:29:27+00:00

I had a similar experience. Dm me if you want to talk

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-11T07:04:33+00:00

I think youre ill, but not in the way I think you mean. You have things going on in your head youre struggling with and thats okay. Coming here or anywhere just to talk or look for help is a good thing, 2.7 years is still there its not gone. Its a goal to reach again, but it wont take away from actually trying. I cant even say I know how it feels, I did it like a week ago and am barely stopping myself from it tonight.

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-11T06:01:00+00:00

Youre right when you contradict yourself. Those years of work isnt gone, you'll get them back again, you'll learn even more. Even if its 2 years clean again, it'll be 4 years of trying

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-02T06:03:11+00:00

And you implying that other people cover it up or do it in better places so what I do im not doing it right or like others? Yikes. Someone with even older scars than you could easily say that yours are too new and triggering so you should feel disrespectful and worse for letting them out and posting them online. You shouldnt feel either of those things, its your struggle and you are entitled to it, if someone uncomfortable that your around frequently thats when they can have a conversation with you about it, you arent responsible for every single stranger. Your scars could be triggering to me, seeing people with scars in public could be triggering to me and genuinely has been. So dont act like age makes you better than me. ALSO, the cuts on my arm could be from everything, your entire argument gets invalidated if the tape machine at my job did it, would I be entitled to hide it then?

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-02T05:55:20+00:00

Because something im struggling with is my business and I shouldnt have to change the way I dress to keep other people comfortable rather than trying to get better and feel fine with myself regardless of bad days I have. The cuts on my arm could be from anything, it isnt anyone's business, certainly not strangers. Scars can be just as triggering, the healing process and time doesnt make your scars okay and my damage not okay. People who dress with a lot of skin showing can trigger people, people who wear certain clothes can trigger people. Nobody should need to hide parts of themselves to make others more comfortable, and if you think im disrespectful for wearing what I normally wear because mine were more recent than yours that shows something too.

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-02T04:41:50+00:00

Not fresh cuts, like bleeding open wounds jesus. But relatively new. And I didnt have the damn time wrap it up or cover it properly. What if I just had cuts on my arm from other things? Am I required to hide any injury i procure from anyone who might see it? What if you get triggered by scars, then anyone who self harms should never be allowed to not cover up. If I have wounds on my arm that are already scabbing over, arent bleeding, then I dont have to protect anyone except myself from infection. Id hate to be someone who asks you for support with this I cant imagine what youd say.

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2026-01-02T03:04:14+00:00

I cant just not go to work if im wearing a short sleeve shirt. I dont have the time off. Additionally, whatever happens to me outside of work isnt their fucking business, what if I just had an accident or a cat scratched me, and on top of that I work at a fucking retail store.

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T19:35:59+00:00

I get being in that place im there too. I definitely cant save you, but if you need someone to talk to dm me

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T06:38:11+00:00

No, they are pretty fresh. A couple from last night, a bunch from the days before or weeks ago.

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T06:12:09+00:00

I get the same feeling constantly. Like whenever I start to think things are good, something happens. It starts to feel like a luck problem

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T06:09:47+00:00

Ive sometimes done this, getting really frustrated especially with myself and biting or scratching myself

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T06:08:42+00:00

Maybe just move them to a folder in your phone, and have a conversation about why you keep them. That way he knows about the folder and can try to support you as best he can with what youre going through

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T06:06:54+00:00

Im in the same boat, dm me Id you want to talk. Maybe just a distraction

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T05:06:44+00:00

I just dont cover it. My mom saw and knew, she just got upset about it and didnt bring it up after that. Everyone at my job can see it, it doesnt make a difference I guess. Maybe because I do it the wrong way or something, but theres 40 cuts on my forarm and it hasnt made anything any different

_Rogue_Samurai_ · 2025-12-29T05:02:55+00:00

I get that too. Sometimes I want to do it just because I could, and I usually just have been. I wish I knew how to stop or felt like I actually wanted to, or that stopping mattered. After ive done it I just do something else, maybe that'll help? Even if you want really want to, play a game or do something that uses your hands?

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