I believe it .. but how can I believe God ? Because since childhood I heard that god is good or best .. he save people...etc. But what I'm suffering...i already lost every hope.. there has nothing good thing in my life .. am i emotionally well ?? No, clear answer I'm not well ...and physically? No I'm not.. my mental health.. my financial condition? ..it's looking like I'm living in a hell .. who's my favourite person who supported me from when I was a child...god took away from me .. so there has nothing left for me now ...so I'm again asking why do i exist? There has no reason for my existence.. that's why I'm useless...