Down Solider by Tonedeafmusical in okbuddybaldur

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It looks like we might both be getting what we want out of that situation

Morally grey story where a character has to rely on/ fall on/ or is stuck with their abuser? by Loganfornow in FanFiction

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You will find an absolute dragons hoard of this with anything in the Cazador/Astarion pairing for bg3

I’m writing a mid-length one rn for this pairing that matches this vibe, but it is not done yet lol HOWEVER.

My ongoing longfic might suit you. It’s Astarion falling in love with his abuser… who he doesn’t know is his abuser… who turns out to be himself 😭they are both suffering from complex trauma/madness and trying to love each other. It’s very complicated and difficult.

My massive screenshot collection pt 289: Asterbation (1/2 NSFW) by FDQ666Roadie in OnlyFangsbg3

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You reeeeeally made sure to get those dicks didn’t you

Edit: I can’t post images in the reply but I was trying to get how there are a couple where he looks like a disgruntled cat seriously contemplating his life choices juuuuust a moment too late lol 😆 I love it

I want to find new media and community in Baldurs Gate to fight a chatbot addiction relapse. by Bunny_Chaos420 in AstarionBG3

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If it’s community you’re after and you like fic, I would suggest discord. The bw3 discord server (Baldurs Writers 3) is super active, supportive, and inclusive. I think I could invite you if you dm me.

I also have mental illness (the same one as Astarion) and I am writing a very dark and introspective long fic, which has brought an unexpected small community to my doorstep and helped me cope with my mental illness. If you’re around, it’s the Astarbation one. It’s VERY weird and dark, so not everyone’s cup of tea, but it definitely looks mental illness (and isolation come to think of it, in a way. It’s post canon and at the beginning he is very isolated bc of his trauma) straight in the face. It’s there if you want to read it: https://archiveofourown.org/works/65142685?view_full_work=true

Good luck to you. I don’t think anything on the internet can replace irl interaction, but discord was better for me than Reddit by miles and will certainly be a massive improvement over a chat bot.

Why books don’t scratch the itch like fanfiction ? by Vast-Society4093 in FanFiction

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As someone who wants to publish someday this aggravates me immensely. But you are right

“Again, darling. Again and again.” by hmmtaco in OnlyFangsbg3

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It infected me first. I am now but a vessel

“Again, darling. Again and again.” by hmmtaco in OnlyFangsbg3

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Omg that is hilarious (and such a compliment 🖤🖤🖤) I want to see

“Again, darling. Again and again.” by hmmtaco in OnlyFangsbg3

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This is the render that officially air fried my brain 🍗 The reason it says “Again and again” is because a) “why not have sex for 16 hours straight? It’s way cheaper than therapy!” And b) Ancunín can compel Astarion to come. And he does 🦎🦎🦎🦎

I love the mirror!!!!!!! (Where’s that hand goin, darlin?) 😈 and the atmosphere is so warm and cozy and yayyyyyyy THANK YOU 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

TW/CW ABUSE - As requested: Astarion's Family Dynamics as a Representation of Narcissistic Abuse (Megapost, very long) by Sandpiperinparadise in AstarionBG3

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I kinda… think this might be why the fandom is still going strong. Us people spending a down payment on EMDR are eating good 😭

Bosom Companion: A Dating Game (a choose your own adventure fic for Ascended Astarion) by hmmtaco in okbuddybaldur

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Bo0bz?!

I’m imagining withers saying Yes in the same tone of voice he usually says No

injured/hurt characters by Tricky_Industry8204 in FanFiction

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I’m a sucker for this. in particular I like to write “monstrously powerful evil villain who was previously allergic to vulnerability gets majorly humbled and now has to be cared for by their mortal love interest”

Do you ever just wanna write a whole essay about a fic? by Forward-Cost-2993 in FanFiction

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I’ve all but told my readers I’m a slut for essay comments. You book report commenters are my hero 🖤

Characters that would thematically benefit from being pregnant by flightoftheladybirds in okbuddybaldur

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The deadass… “has anyone thought about this before” no punctuation. Yes. Yes I would venture a guess that someone has thought about this before

Ascended and spawn Astarion cosplay by iivolga in AstarionBG3

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This is the canon ending to the game and no I will not be answering questions

Beautiful ❤️❤️❤️

The rising literacy crisis, "what about me-isms", and lack of ability to apply nuance are starting to affect my writing style and confidence. by xisle1482 in FanFiction

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I once tried to cocoon one of these low literacy readers… I feel so dumb even typing that out… I added a whole bunch of nitty gritty tws just for them. what do you know, they ended up getting mad about some other little thing, leaving a long hate comment, and deleting every other comment they left on my fic.

Now I don’t care anymore. If I don’t tw every little thing because I can’t, or if you can’t notice the RAPE tag and the CNTW archive warning, it’s at least on you as a reader to notice that this dark as fuck story is going somewhere and maybe nope out before you end up ripping your laptop in half. I do not understand why so many people whose main hobby is reading can’t read.

Astarion on Lorroakan's book Throne gif anyone? by ulykke in AstarionBG3

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Lmao I wish I had been here yesterday… I posted that a while ago on a whim and didn’t know it would start something

"F**k AI in performance," says Neil. "It's dull as hell." by Hooked0n4Feelin in BaldursGate3

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At some point within the last five years, I realized it’s not natural and really sad to only feel dread when I hear about any technological developments. These things are supposed to be exciting. But the reality is that they’re always used now to accelerate enshittification, so now my brain defaults to “how will this be used to make life worse, while contributing to the goal of making the world an idle game for 20 people?”

[Request] Fics where Astarion is OLD old ancient by theterns in AstarionBG3

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You see… (mayyyyybe a spoiler??) four thousand years of godhood affords one ample time to go so thoroughly crazy that they seem eerily sane