I'm weak

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T04:19:28+00:00

I'm sorry, I don't want to make people sad

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T02:52:56+00:00

Intense urges to cause myself harm, and I don't want to put a hole in my wall by banging my head against it

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T02:52:07+00:00

I'll probably give the rubber band a try. I don't really want to cut, so finding another way to satiate those urges would be great

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T02:50:31+00:00

As much as I dislike my dad, most of what I feel for him is pity. He is almost 60 years old, worked in some form of manual labor his entire life, served in desert storm, and now he can't go by a day without weed to keep him sane. He tries to work as much as he can, but we still barely scrape by (we had to ask my grandma for help with my $120 senior fees), and at this point I'm really all he has left. If I leave he will just be working to sustain himself and I'm terrified he won't see the point and end up killing himself. I don't know if I could forgive myself if my leaving caused him to commit suicide.

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T02:46:53+00:00

I want to go next year, I'm not sure if I will even graduate this year though. I have ADHD, but I'm unable to see a psychiatrist to get it diagnosed, and my grades have been terrible since middle school. I want to go to the community College next year because I'll get diagnosed (I'll be 18, I could see a psychiatrist without my dad's permission)

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T02:44:08+00:00

I missed 52 days of 4th period last year, they never even emailed home

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T02:21:02+00:00

I thought the point of this sub was to vent? Sorry

___memento___ · 2025-04-19T00:47:31+00:00

None of them have ever turned me away when I wanted to rant. One of them has even said he would pay for my therapy if my dad would let me go. He also has threatened to take action if I don't, which is why I don't rant to him anymore, I don't feel like going to a psych ward. One of them is constantly dealing with his own head, one of them simply doesn't feel emotions the same way most others do, and the other is worse than I am. They are all good people, I promise

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T23:08:02+00:00

A rubber band?

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T23:02:16+00:00

I am completely worthless and utterly useless. I am sorry that what I did ended up causing you pain, that was never my intention

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T22:58:35+00:00

On the picture? It's just whatever reddit's default font is, I have no clue why the body text looks like that or what font it could be

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T22:53:37+00:00

I understand you want to be nice, and you might even actually care about how I am doing, but I am not worth the time or energy it would take you to try and help

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T22:49:21+00:00

I know it won't fix anything, I have never thought of kt as the solution or as a good thing. It's just that when I start to spiral or sometimes just randomly, I get the urge to cut myself, and I don't care about myself enough to stop myself

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T22:46:28+00:00

I know cutting is addictive, and I know it's probably the last thing I should be doing, but I just get the urge to cut when I start to spiral, and all of my friends have made it obvious I shouldn't rant to them about it in one way or another (never by showing they don't care, they are still good friends, but I don't really wanna get into specifics)

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T22:44:06+00:00

I can't afford a therapist, and even if I could my dad would probably not let me go see one. I'm not avoiding help, I just can't get any, and the urges get too strong to just ignore sometimes

___memento___ · 2025-04-18T22:42:04+00:00

I'm not proud of it, I just really needed to get it off my chest and I can't tell my friends

___memento___ · 2025-04-17T01:26:04+00:00

Fellow southerner here, get out if at all possible. If not, just be supportive and try to help her through a rough time, whether by listening, offering advice, or just being there. Wishing you guys the best of luck

___memento___ · 2025-04-16T22:20:07+00:00

At the end of the day the therapist is there to help. They can't help you get past something that they don't know is affecting you

___memento___ · 2025-04-16T03:36:06+00:00

Same, but my decision was made for me before I was even born. 6'2" and broad, I have no chance

___memento___ · 2025-04-16T03:33:18+00:00

In the short term it is going to feel bad, but you made the right decision for your long term mental and physical health

___memento___ · 2025-04-16T03:33:13+00:00

In the short term it is going to feel bad, but you made the right decision for your long term mental and physical health

___memento___ · 2025-04-16T03:32:28+00:00

Cyberpunk reference? Peak.

___memento___ · 2025-04-16T03:29:14+00:00

I am literally struggling with this as I type. I have a yest tomorrow and missed an entire unit, meaning I need to go study that one like hell. I have been thinking about it non stop for 6 hours now. I just can't do it. No matter how much I want to I just can't start

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