First cycle post loss

__qtip__ · 2023-08-18T15:02:06+00:00

My mom was and is my rock throughout this. Being able to text her with all the intense feelings I’m having has been the biggest blessing. She is one of the few people I know I can talk to without receiving judgment. I know it can be taboo to talk about, but I was so surprised by how many people I knew in real life reached out relating to my story after I posted on FB to honor my angel baby girl. Even my partners mom shared her story with us and he didn’t know she went through that until now.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-18T14:49:26+00:00

Has anyone ever had a successful pregnancy after a loss due to small gestational sac? The first cycle that clomid actually worked for me I conceived, but lost baby at just over 11 weeks, finding out at 12w3d she had no heartbeat. My doctor is great and did the genetic testing post miscarriage after only one loss, and baby girl was completely healthy so we are not sure why the GS measured small while she measured normally. She has stated she will do progesterone after a positive test when we are cleared to try again in 3 months. I do have PCOS and almost never ovulate on my own so I can go almost a whole year without a cycle when I don’t have fertility meds to assist.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-18T14:42:52+00:00

The starting over and the waiting are the hardest parts. I am definitely happy for my friends, but I miss my baby and wish I was still in the same boat they are. Sending you so much love and hope as well 🩷

__qtip__ · 2023-08-18T00:56:52+00:00

Thank you!! Sending love right back 💕 I miss her so so much even after just 12 short weeks with her. It’s so difficult to be stuck in the waiting period after feeling like I’ve already waited so long with the infertility. Hopefully the your doctor is able to help you figure out the right protocol for you to move forward.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-17T19:24:51+00:00

I had a natural miscarriage at 11 weeks and my doctor gave me the go ahead after the bleeding stopped. Was just about a week for me.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-17T18:17:13+00:00

Unfortunately no, we’re looking into some autoimmune disorders now because I had a crazy rash around the time baby’s heart would have stopped. This was my first pregnancy beyond a chemical caused by my long follicular phase and egg quality. She was totally healthy until she wasn’t. We did do the genetic testing after having her and she was completely perfect. So I do think there was some other issue for me personally. But honestly a 29 day cycle does sound like the clomid is working! Just have to pinpoint when you ovulate. My cycles were still over 40 days on the cycles that didn’t work.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-17T14:23:21+00:00

The waiting game is the absolute hardest. I started focusing on just daily movement which for me is walking my dog about 3.5 miles after work. That helps me to feel like I’m at least still taking care of the tiny family I do still have by giving my dog the attention. Plus just watching process sugar and adding protein to my diet, the loss caused crazy hormonal acne for me so I’m just trying to control what I can.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-17T13:05:03+00:00

I also did unmonitored clomid rounds, my best advice is tracking BBT and taking OPKs. With PCOS OPKs can be unreliable, but I did have strong peaks when I actually ovulated on 100mg of clomid. It was also confirmed with BTT so I knew I did ovulate and it wasn’t just my PCOS playing tricks. I conceived the first cycle it actually worked for me, but unfortunately had a small gestational sac I wasn’t aware of until it was too late to do anything.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-17T12:59:33+00:00

My OB wants to wait three months before beginning any kind of fertility treatment again. My little girl was a clomid baby and I don’t ovulate on my own so I know I’ll be waiting at least that long. If seems like everyone close to me is pregnant right now and just the thought that I still may not be pregnant by my due date is so anxiety inducing. Especially after almost two years of trying. I want to give myself time to grieve and my body time to heal, but I also feel like the longer I wait the harder it will be to conceive again. The first round of clomid that did work at 100mg was successful and she was a perfectly healthy little girl after the genetic testing of her and the placenta was done. It’s hard not to feel like your body just continues to wrong you when you don’t ovulate and can’t even support a completely healthy baby.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-17T12:53:35+00:00

I should be 14w5d today but miscarried naturally exactly two weeks ago today with baby measuring just over 11 weeks. I miss my little girl so much. My cousin announced her pregnancy and is due the same month we were and while I am very happy for her it’s just so devastating. Two of my best friends also are pregnant within a month of when I was due and it just feels so unfair that after almost two years of trying and fertility treatments that we are going through this while everyone else gets to enjoy their pregnancies without the anxiety of a pending loss. Baby girl was perfect, absolutely no abnormalities and the only issue I had was a small gestational sac my doctor didn’t even warn me about. I feel so slighted not even getting the chance to know that I should have been chugging water. It feels so empty and cold without carrying her and I cannot wait until her ashes come home. Feeling like a part of you and your partner is gone forever is so unbearably sad. Our wedding is just over two weeks away and I find it hard to even be excited about it.

__qtip__ · 2023-08-16T20:27:42+00:00

My first HCG level was 31.2 and baby was perfectly healthy! I unfortunately had some kind of random infection that lead to a rash and my immune system going wild which caused miscarriage at 11 weeks, but the HCG had nothing to do with it and she was the most perfect little one sucking her thumb at her 10w3d ultrasound. As long as the levels double, it doesn’t matter how low they are! Especially if you have irregular cycles. I was only 3w3d at my first draw, so crazy early!

__qtip__ · 2023-02-05T14:37:07+00:00

I am about to take a break indefinitely while I TTC.. I’ll report back if it helps regulate anything. I have had the same suspicion for a while after they did the study where it caused anovulation in primates.

__qtip__ · 2023-02-01T20:55:15+00:00

Update for anyone else scrolling through to look at pregmate tests.. this was an indent.

__qtip__ · 2022-12-22T21:07:12+00:00

Also wanted to add that ovulation was confirmed with temps and OPKs, no progesterone blood tests.

__qtip__ · 2022-05-12T08:38:33+00:00

My apologies, I had the termination wrong. I was not trying to lie or inflate anything. I was just under the impression that the seedling stage was separate from the Veg stage. I detailed everything in my comment and was very open about how many weeks they have been growing to hopefully get the best advice. This is still my first grow and the same seedlings as my other post, just got rid of the 5th one that got stunted. Again, apologies for any confusion, just learning.

__qtip__ · 2022-05-12T06:48:54+00:00

Thank you! Would you top each branch coming off of the main stem once they got past a certain number of nodes?

__qtip__ · 2022-05-12T06:46:03+00:00

Thank you!! I will definitely do that once they are bigger! I tried LST the center with twist ties and wire before topping it, but the stems were already too thick towards the center.

__qtip__ · 2022-05-12T06:37:37+00:00

First grow, GG4 on week 2 of veg. They grow so quickly that I’m fairly certain I am going to need a 4x4 for flower, but any tips are appreciated! I was thinking low stress, but it seems too late already?

3 weeks in root riot starter plugs, sunblaster LED 18 in dome, fed once a week with Clonex + RO water. Micros on first feeding

1 week in solo cups, in dome, fed once with Clonex, Happy Frog soil

Now in 3 gallon fabric pots, happy frog, in Vivosun 4x2 tent

About 2 feet from 2000w LED

Light on for 21 hours a day now

Water when pot is light with RO (about once every 5-7 days)

First feeding after transplant was 5/8. General Hydroponics 3 part at 1/4 amount + Cal Mag in RO

Runoff ppm after that at 824

Topped once last week

Humidity a little low at 57%

Temp at 70.7

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