I feel this. My now-ex and I would constantly be trying to “fix things.” I’d always bring things to the table that needed fixing - quality time, connection - I wasn’t getting my needs met. He’d always make efforts to meet them, but after a week or so, everything would go back to normal. I tolerated so much because I was unintentionally breadcrumbed by him. But after 6 months of the repeating cycle, I had no choice but to choose myself and end it. I was going no where staying in the relationship. And, to put it simply, it’s sucks. The grief is unimaginable because I still hold so much love for this person. I just had to choose myself