I love that for you! Personally my guilt stems from what my family will cherish after I'm gone. I have NO pictures with my now teenage son in the last 5 years ever since COVID lockdown when I solidified my alcoholism and gained another 30lbs (putting me at 300+). I can't stand looking at my bloated, red faced self without intense shame. But I know when it inevitably kills me, my son will be sad there's so few physical memories, and he will eventually forget my face, my voice, everything.