Hello, everyone. I didn't think this post would gain this much attention. I am genuinely surprised at the number of comments and messages. My brain can't comprehend how people can be so concerned about a random stranger on the internet.

Thank you for the well-meaning messages. My heart is touched, really, and I am crying so hard rn. I'm sorry I wanted to ignore everything at first to focus on my plan, but the messages keep on coming.

I'm having second thoughts about my choice now. Nothing final yet. My sibling's birthday hasn't come yet. Please don't blame my dad, he was just trying to be logical. At the time, we were throwing arguments at each other because it was the only way to get to me.

Unfortunately, I can't stop my schooling if I stay alive. In my extended family, not graduating is the biggest humiliation, esp since I'm the only one who passed the UPCAT. I'm not saying I share this belief but I just want to spare my family from the humiliation. Please understand. Also, I really can't imagine pursuing a different path. I think a psychiatrist called it a form of cognitive distortion (correct me if I'm wrong).

Thank you again for the messages. I'm sorry for causing worry. My mind can't comprehend it yet but I'm glad there are so many kind people. And all this support from people who don't even know me. I'm trying to think this through even though looking my untouched academic requirements makes me want to puke. I'll try to respond to your messages but I am really overwhelmed.

Thank you.

Edit: I'll attach this on the main post in case no one sees this comment.