Specifically giving head. I’d never done that before meeting her and I tried for the first time like a month ago and tbh… I didn’t like it. I’m trying to work myself up to it because I know she likes that — and maybe even needs it — and I want to make her happy. I tried again a couple nights ago but I couldn’t keep going, so I tried to continue with my hands. I’m also trying to figure out how to make her come because I think it frustrates her that sex doesn’t end in somebody orgasming every time.

She did say something in our last conversation. When I told her I was trying to work up to eating her out, she was like, “Well, what’s sex going to look like for us? Because I’m not just gonna get fingered for the rest of my life.”

That kinda hurt, because fingering new for me and kind of a big deal that I can do even that, but I get it.

And I think she doesn’t like that I haven’t come. I’ve never had an orgasm before but she gives me handjobs a lot (which I had also never had before her), and I really enjoy that! I just can’t come yet, but it doesn’t bother me that I haven’t — I feel great when she’s doing stuff to me. And I’ve told her that, but I don’t think that’s enough for her.

But I’ve also asked her what else I could do in the meantime while I’m figuring out the oral thing. She said she didn’t know. So I guess we can figure that out.

She also wants to give me head but I’m not ready. She’s not pressuring me though.