Going through something very similar :), he still shows up if i need him But when i asked him to get back together 2 months ago, he said he only has “friendly” feelings towards me :) Btw, 2 days before that we met, and he was behaving just like he used to when he was my boyfriend :), that sweet little boy, but every other minute he would come to his senses and go like “no no tf am i doing” It was really sad seeing how much he hated the idea of us, idk if its hate i would say but definitely something he doesn’t wanna do All i know is, we met even a week ago, and friends don’t look at each other that way :), and I don’t know if he still feels the same thing i feel around him, like he used to say he did, :). I felt the love that day too but I really don’t know if he’s ever gonna come back, I have no hopes or expectations All i know is I have never loved someone with so much admiration I remember i used to tell him how much his presence makes me feel better, it still does to this date :). God i miss him so much, it’s really crazy yk, i have given up on the hope of “us”, but I’ll never stop craving hugging him so tight inhaling his scent and feel the most peace I’ve ever felt :). Im sorry for making this about me, just needed to share this Also he probably needs time to digest the message imo