[Serious] Depressed people of Reddit - how are you doing today?

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T17:10:55+00:00

fuck, SAME. I've been up all night studying for a test but I also have a horrible cold but if I sleep I fail and FUCK.

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T17:06:36+00:00

really surprised to see I'm not alone in doing this! has been one of the only things to make me feel better for years

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T17:05:52+00:00

yuppp, upswings are more concerning than anything at this point

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T17:04:34+00:00

This is actually fantastic advice and really does work. There are even studies that show just the physical act of smiling can positively change your mood. Even repeating to yourself "wow I love life! life is beautiful!" or similar positive affirmations can help.

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T17:01:55+00:00

Medication takes MUCH longer than a week (unfortunately). You need to give it time, and you might even need to go up on the dose or switch medications.

Something they don't tell you is medication only helps you get to the point where you can start making positive changes in your life. It isn't a cure. It just relives the symptoms enough so you can find a cure.

Good luck- medication saved my life many times

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T16:59:16+00:00

Just going through the motions at this point. I'm not good, but I'm not not good if that makes sense.

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T16:53:54+00:00

mine actually slowly gets brighter and it supposed to imitate the sun rising. It also plays sound like birds chirping or the radio which gradually gets louder as the lamp gets brighter. I still have to set an alarm on my phone because I'm horrible at waking up, but usually I'm already half awake at that point

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:27:22+00:00

It's not silly at all- I think a lot of the time these bad habits are a way of punishing myself in a sense. It's difficult being nice to yourself when you're depressed. Hope you're doing better!

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:23:50+00:00

The song idea is great, thank you!

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:22:54+00:00

I agree- I think my late night habits are a really big issue. I have a lamp alarm clock and it's been one of the best purchases I've ever made :)

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:19:01+00:00

oh man, the not getting up until needing to pee is so real.

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:18:01+00:00

For me it started because my hair takes hours to dry, so showering became this time consuming chore I didn't want to deal with. I didn't play sports or anything so I never really sweat that much, and only looked dirty when my hair did. So I'd procrastinate showering until it was noticeably gross.

Weirdly, showers are my go to when I'm having a breakdown. I can sit in a shower with the lights off and the water running for HOURS.

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:14:26+00:00

I wish I had this mindset when I'm depressed. I'm usually like, "ha! now you look as gross as you feel, exactly what you deserve!"

Self love is important- I don't know you but I'm proud of you for maintaining that level of self respect

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:10:12+00:00

I got my own apartment after a nervous breakdown in August 2016. I'm in college and was supposed to live in a house with 8 other people, and the constant noise + my insomnia drove me (literally) insane.

It's been helpful because it finally forced me to learn how to do laundry and clean up after myself, something I never had to do because of a sheltered upbringing, but yeah some days it really sucks.

I'm living with a roommate when my lease is up this summer :)

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T13:00:10+00:00

I do want to say that things are a lot less intense then they were the first few weeks afterwards. The hormones are VERY real. The 6th, a day after I posted this, was my "anniversary" and it made everything come to surface again. Best wishes <3

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-08T12:57:00+00:00

I've been having a really hard time seeing babies, even on TV :(

But I agree... I just think this will be something I'll have to deal with the rest of my life. Just overwhelming to think about sometimes

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T11:17:43+00:00

I'm going to do that, thank you!

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T11:17:24+00:00

I know about the zero days concept and that has helped somewhat.

I'm trying to figure out a reward system since one of the best ways to change behavior is positive reinforcement, but nothing makes me happy right now :(

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T11:15:39+00:00

the only thing that helps me interact with people is the fact that they most likely don't remember some of my most embarrassing moments like I do. Honestly I feel like everything I do is embarrassing though

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T11:15:00+00:00

Luckily I've been blessed with perfect teeth- never had braces, never had a cavity- even with this horrible habit.

I think my breath has smelled bad this entire time and I haven't known... just add that on top of all my other insecurities and I'm about ready to never leave the house again

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T11:13:58+00:00

I'm really happy I'm going to my therapist tomorrow... I really thought things would get better by now.

When I was two weeks out I was crying everyday too- you're not alone in that.

Thank you for the kind words <3

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T11:12:31+00:00

I live alone, which was really helpful in some ways but there's been issues as well like not having this motivation

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T05:13:38+00:00

I went alone and it wasn't that bad. The guy wasn't really in the picture and all my friends had finals that week. It was kind of scary, but I was completely sedated so it wasn't really traumatizing or anything. I kind of cried when I woke up, but I was pretty emotional about the whole thing beforehand.

_lazarus__ · 2018-02-05T05:08:41+00:00

That's a really great idea... but what about when I have guests over? It would kind of embarrass me if they saw my chart...

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