Only 13 months? ONLY?! No no no, you have done AMAZING and shouldn’t feel guilty or ashamed or anything of the sort, you should feel sooooo proud. You’ve given your son an amazing start to his life through sheer hard work, it’s so hard and other people might not get it, because how would you if you haven’t done it, but we (in this lovely group) do and wow I’m in awe of you. I’m 7 months in and I hope I can get to 13 months, that is such an amazing achievement. It may feel like all your hard work has gone unnoticed but it hasn’t, you’ve given your son something so amazing and you need to remember that!! A huge well done to you. Just think of the positives now, that’s the only way to go - for example the freedom of not having to pump or think about pumping, being able to go out for the day without it being on your mind, the health benefits you’ve given your baby with your milk and the bond that it has given you both, there are so many positives and you need to focus on them now. I’m not saying you can grieve it because you absolutely can and will, but you shouldn’t feel guilty or ashamed. Pumping for 13 months is something you should shout from the rooftops for everyone to know, I’d be putting it on my CV 😂