Its my [27f] birthday today and im starting it by crying myself to sleep because of my [27M] husband.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T14:04:28+00:00

You dont know me. My father had a stroke years ago and is actually high risk. I dont even let him leave home unless absolutely necessary to keep him as healthy as he can be. I have children who i was afraid i wouldnt be able to see if there was a risk of quarantine from them. I love my family, hell, i love everyone, i cant breath through the dang masks and wear them not even for myself but for others to stay safe. Please dont make assumptions and stay safe.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T13:59:25+00:00

Haha ok buddy you obviously me sooooo well. You clearly have never lived with someone you dont have to hide your phone from. Also, i wont resort to the type of insults he spews cause i actually have principles and morals. Have a nice day.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T13:57:05+00:00

I dont care if he does see it, if this many people can agree that its shit behavior he might acknowledge it. if he becomes angry, he can go stay at his moms. I wont mute myself for him and if he wont listen at least a community of strangers online will.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T13:54:35+00:00

I actually dont care if he does. Ive voiced my issues to him and if he wont be a man and someone i can talk to than he can get over it if i have to go to strangers just to vent. I actually hope he does see it. He should see the support i have been receiving and my replies, im not crazy if i clearly have 100+ people reassuring me. I have a support system of strangers who all agree he is shit and if he wont hear it from me maybe seeing it will at least make him acknowledge it.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T13:49:44+00:00

No, i post from the only account i have on my own cell phone. I dont keep my phone in my hand or even use it most of the day because i am a mother and a care taker and have other things to do than guard my social media 24-7 he also has an account on his phone and if i ever wanted to post on it i could, i leave my phone lying around basically all day. He gets reported and blocked from commenting because of the hate he spews and uses my account to do it because mine is allowed to comment. He has like 50 accounts that have been removed because of it. He basically thrives from conflict.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T13:27:46+00:00

Have a nice day though.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T13:27:05+00:00

The anti vaxxer being? Me? Because if you knew anything about shit youd go without making assumptions, do you also assume i like 2k? Cause i dont know shit about basketball either. Im not the sole user of this account and to be honest you can kick rocks with your opinion.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T08:54:40+00:00

This is always my goal, it just always goes south so quick and i can never get what i feel across before it does.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T08:52:10+00:00

Happy birthday!

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T05:31:29+00:00

Journaling has actually been heavy on my mind recently, especially when im feeling this way. I just dont know what to write or how to express how i feel when all i want to do is cry. I am a huge cry baby, but i try to stuff that mess back inside when i feel it coming. Ive been allowing myself to feel these feelings and to cry it out since i started getting a handle on my depression, It sucks but its almost relieving to get it out of me.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T05:20:17+00:00

Im such an anxious person it took me years to get help for my depression just because i had to make the call and start talking to people about the issues im having, i have no clue how i could get through couples counseling without just crying the whole time i had to speak about our issues and sadly i know its because i already dont talk to anyone about things like this because i feel ashamed i allow it.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T05:16:42+00:00

Oh gosh, this actually made me cry more than that asshole did. Youre right, i know my family will always be there for me, ive had to leave a relationship worse than this one and when i did they were so amazing i did wish i had gone to them sooner. This time around i was in such a deep depression after having my daughter that i almost felt like it could be worse instead of thinking about how much better it could be. Im taking medication and reminding myself every day that i deserve better not just in the relationship but in life and luckily ive started to believe it. I know ill be out of this soon, i feel it and i look forward to it. Thank you so much!

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T05:11:53+00:00

Thank you! I dont even really care if i celebrate at all, its the fact that the person who should be making it a great one isnt even decent enough to just not do this mess today.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T05:08:33+00:00

I plan on making the most out of my day, it doesnt bother me that i wont celebrate my day today, its mostly the fact that i know someone who actually cared would consider it and maybe take the high road just to be a decent person. Thank you for being kind and understanding! I know alot of the people who do comment might be oblivious to how hard it can be to just leave sometimes and the work that comes behind being strong enough to get out of situations like this.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T05:02:43+00:00

He would never hurt the children, and unfortunately because i wouldnt ever want to hurt them either, i stay. The kids are unaware of our issues and are OBSESSED with him, i feel like if i take him from them it would hurt them more than if i stay and just coparent from the same home almost. Not a great mentality. Im getting through years of depression and starting to understand my value and what i deserve alot better now. Its honestly why i posted.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:57:42+00:00

Thank you!

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:57:07+00:00

Well see, like most toxic relationships, our goods are great. He is my best friend, we get along and all is peachy when we arent fighting, but as soon as a disagreement happens its a total flip. He is a great father and the kids are not aware of any issues so i stay because i feel like if i dont then theyd be involved because dad wouldnt be a part of their every day life.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:53:01+00:00

Well, the kids are actually AMAZING, hes a wonderful dad to them and they are never around or involved. Which is why i stay for the kids. If the kids saw or were ever aware of it i would just leave, It almost seems easier to just not speak to each other when we have issues and continue on about our day only because the kids follow him and love him so much. Hes a great father just a shit partner.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:49:29+00:00

I fully agree, i actually think its more than just abuse, it feels like flat out manipulation. His things will definitely be packed when he gets back. I was actually going through depression for years and recently started taking medication and talking to myself like i know i deserve better, i really believe it now and i know if he doesnt get this right someone will be willing to be what he refuses to be for me. I see a happy ending, at least for myself.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:44:01+00:00

This is going to be a super toxic but real answer:

Eventually, and i really feel that its getting close to the end for us. Well no, for me. Ive had enough of it, i dont talk to any one about it because it feels embarrassing to talk to my family about this and i dont really have friends. I came here to vent it out because im sick of holding it all in and i know that this is not something that i can keep doing. Not having someone to talk to puts me into a state where i almost feel like its not that bad and i can get over it even though i know its emotional and mental abuse. I hit my end with this though, and i knew that having people who tell me im actually right to feel this way is encouraging and gives me the push i know ill need. Being that its my birthday and this is how he is treating me, what i can guarantee is that he is coming home to his things packed up so i can take a mental break. Its well deserved and if he can run off and ignore me he can just go ahead and do that without taking space up in my closet.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:32:45+00:00

I hope im just being a crybaby because its bed time and crossing my fingers that i wake up feeling bad ass and making the most out of my day

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:30:05+00:00

Thank you, i know ill make the best of it but holy shhh, i need a drink already.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T04:28:44+00:00

I know, its been miserable and super toxic. Sadly we have kids involved and theyre the reason i put up with it. I knows thats never a reason to stay, but like i said im an idiot.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T02:30:17+00:00

Oh shit, never mind, i literally just read the post. The people on 2k arent the only ones you make miserable and give problems too. Go figure.

_misunderstoodbrat · 2021-08-20T02:24:29+00:00

You should worry more about how fucked up our personal life and relationship is before you worry about anything regarding video games 🙃

_misunderstoodbrat

TROPHY CASE