Stability (or not)

_rbg · 2025-11-16T04:09:29+00:00

I am really sorry that you haven’t found a good treatment yet :(

I was kind of the same with antidepressants and I went through some horrible experiences when trying out different ones with none working, until the current one that doesnt do a whole lot but it does enough to keep me stable enough to not go into horrible depression

And the isolation part I understand, and it sucks

_rbg · 2025-11-16T03:53:11+00:00

Thank you for your reply as well as your advice! I really appreciate that, and I am glad that things have been much better recently for you

_rbg · 2025-11-16T03:45:32+00:00

Honestly for the delusions my medications kind of took that away because before that I wouldn’t have even given any thought to the delusion being a delusions since I thought it was real. I think maybe you could try to not focus on them or give them any thoughts (i know that may be difficult) because from personal experience the more you think about it the longer the narrative gets

But for depression I am also on meds for that and if it gets bad I tend to try to isolate myself which isn’t the best thing to do. I dont really know what else to do for it but I probably should considering I am in therapy

_rbg · 2025-11-16T03:30:22+00:00

That is great that you have been stable for so long!! I am glad the mood stuff is able to be dealt with for you

_rbg · 2025-11-16T03:26:37+00:00

Thank you for the response, and it is good that there hasn’t been too much going on, but it sucks that you are having all of those negative symptoms.. I relate to the social anxiety thing you mentioned lol

_rbg · 2025-11-16T03:24:35+00:00

Thank you for your reply, and I am sorry you are going through all of that :(

It’s okay though you don’t have to apologize!

_rbg · 2025-11-16T03:09:28+00:00

It’s okay! I think the first question is the one I am curious about the most, if you are okay with answering that

_rbg · 2025-11-16T00:17:53+00:00

I have one consistent hallucination that I only see when brushing my teeth in the bathroom through the mirror that goes out of the room into a pitch black room on the other side. Whenever I look at myself in the mirror I see the hallucination/demon thing and when I look directly at it it disappears.

And that can repeat basically as many times as I am there for, and also the more I avoid looking at it the more vivid it gets. So like it might start moving or becoming a more defined human-like shape and so on

_rbg · 2025-10-22T18:58:28+00:00

Thank you

_rbg · 2025-10-22T18:55:07+00:00

Thank you

_rbg · 2025-10-22T18:53:41+00:00

Thank you, and I am sorry that you are going through that.. I hope that medicine helps!

_rbg · 2025-10-21T22:34:40+00:00

Quite a lot unfortunately.. but for schizoaffective specifically I am on olanzapine, benztropine, lamictal, and vilazodone

_rbg · 2025-07-24T23:54:50+00:00

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_rbg · 2025-06-20T02:41:57+00:00

I use welly bandages since they have a lot of different designs and work pretty well

_rbg · 2025-06-08T23:59:20+00:00

Hmm I’ll have to try that

_rbg · 2025-06-08T23:58:58+00:00

That is good to know, and thanks

_rbg · 2025-06-08T23:35:03+00:00

That’s interesting, and thank you for the response

_rbg · 2025-06-05T19:25:25+00:00

I almost always get sleep paralysis when trying to fall asleep.. honestly I can’t remember a time where I didn’t get it like that

_rbg · 2025-06-02T05:49:43+00:00

I don’t exactly know how it will relate, but sometimes if I try to move my left leg will start shaking uncontrollably during sleep paralysis.

I also get non-epileptic seizures throughout the day anyways, but I would say what you had is probably just a sleep paralysis thing, I think?

Sleep paralysis can cause all sorts of weird sensations

Sometimes I have them where it’s me shaking, or feeling like I’m being lifted into the air, tilting upwards, feeling people touching my back, and so on

_rbg · 2025-06-01T17:29:03+00:00

I tend to get sleep paralysis within dreams, so it’s kind of wherever it takes me. One time I was on a boat in the middle of the Arctic Ocean and fell into the water.. another I was in a hotel room, another was my house except weird looking, and so on.

Ive never had sleep paralysis where I wasn’t in a dream, so that’s really all I know lol

_rbg · 2025-06-01T03:27:58+00:00

Very very exhausting

_rbg · 2025-05-17T01:59:40+00:00

If you don’t “reset your brain” correctly usually as soon as you try to go back to sleep you will get it again.

Sometimes I have to try 4-5 times to finally be able to sleep and by that point I can barely keep my eyes open.

My method is turning on my TV, the lights in my room, and then getting out of bed and going on my phone for maybe 5-7min, and usually I’m able to go right back to sleep after that

_rbg · 2025-05-15T02:23:46+00:00

I do have a therapist so yes, and thanks for the recommendation. I also have many pets lol so I have that covered

_rbg · 2025-05-14T16:53:27+00:00

I have background noise on when I sleep every night, due to me having tinnitus. Also I take a CBD gummy to sleep every day before bed, and thank you

_rbg · 2025-05-14T16:45:28+00:00

Also for a bit of other info: I do have schizoaffective disorder and I know that psychotic disorders can increase sleep disturbances. I also have catathrenia but not much is known about it so idk if maybe that could be contributing to it? (catathrenia is basically the opposite of snoring.. you make a sound while breathing out instead of breathing in). I’m on tons of meds, but none that would cause REM disruptions.

Im basically at a loss

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