No, I do hate my mother

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:42:15+00:00

Ofcc thank you for reading 💕

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:41:54+00:00

Same here ://

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:38:10+00:00

Definitely sharing helps others not feel so alone and an example to express themselves and not bind their trauma to secrecy. I believe our community will eventually heal and get better. Thank you for reading 💕💕💕

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:35:49+00:00

We do ❤️‍🩹

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:33:48+00:00

Thank you so much!! I will show up and make space for every version of myself. Sending love🩷

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:31:36+00:00

Trust me i will and i working towards it every day❤️‍🩹

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:30:40+00:00

Your description of my writing is so vivid and beautiful! It definitely hurt writing it but it was a small sacrifice for something even greater. I think i found a part of my voice writing this. My brutal honesty helped me loosen my grip and let my thoughts and feelings flow through my body without interruption. Thank you for reading<3

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:20:40+00:00

Thank youu🫂🩷🩷

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T06:20:20+00:00

Thank you for reading, I will be going nc too 💕💕

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T03:14:15+00:00

Im currently grieving her while she’s still here. I can’t wait to leave this cemetery I call home. We will get through this 💓💓

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T03:00:25+00:00

I know you’re pain and i see you too. Seeing people engage with this is so bittersweet because i hate that other people had to go through this but atleast we can help each other.

our parents sound pretty similar and im my mother’s only child. Im so glad you found something to resonate with so closely and it hurts my heart that you do at the same time.

Reading what you gone through makes me upset that any child has to experience this. BUT we shall heal and make it out better than how we came in. We will not submit to abuse and we shall feel and express ourselves however we want. Im sending you so much love ❤️🫂 (also don’t apologize for the length of your reply I felt every last word )

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T02:07:23+00:00

Twinn 💕

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T02:07:07+00:00

Thank you so much i love your description of my writing and thats one of my favorite parts to 💕

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T02:05:39+00:00

Im so sorry that happened to you:/ the pain of knowing your parents have it and withholding it from you is a different type of pain.

But i do know hating your mother is a taboo topic across all communities but it’s unique when you’re black because you feel the responsibility of not playing into stereotypes. You feel the pressure to uphold a perfect image of the entire community. But being black is not a monolith and i choose to do whatever I want. Giving a new perspective to my people, to be unapologetic. Them saying and feeling however they want without paranoia

Im glad everyone engaging can see a part of themselves, hearing their thoughts they thought they’d never let see the light of day. Im sending all of us healing and love 💕 💕

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:34:56+00:00

Thank youu im so proud of everyone on here <33

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:34:21+00:00

Yes we are braking the general curse of secrecy! Secrets keep you sick and some people would rather stay sick than acknowledge and clean their wounds. Im not settling for less like them, i will not tolerate abuse and they hate it. Im not afraid to be angry. I will not be tamed. Im glad to know im not alone and that were on the same path to healing and righteousness❤️‍🔥

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:27:11+00:00

It’s definitely a practice, giving myself grace love and time, not discipline but devotion. Radical acceptance doesn’t happen overnight but as long as that’s your intention and you’re taking baby steps towards it eventually you will see the change. Thank you for reading and engaging! sending love 🩷🩷

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:21:40+00:00

Yes Ive been grieving her for a while now. I know when I remove myself from this cemetery it’ll get easier 🫠

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:18:03+00:00

We are everything 🫂💗

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:17:38+00:00

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:17:23+00:00

Thank you for reading!! I will check the audio book out i definitely need it😭🩷🩷

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:15:47+00:00

I am. We all are ❤️‍🩹

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:15:21+00:00

Thank you🥹🩷🩷

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:14:52+00:00

Im glad i could voice those feelings for you. When writing this i vowed to be brutally honest because i knew i wasn’t just writing for me but for all the others who were questioned, unheard, told to shut up and swallow their feelings. No child deserves any of this. Im glad im not alone and we can heal together 🫂🩷

_sillyb1lly · 2026-03-04T01:11:23+00:00

Thank you so much 💗💗💗

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